Trapped

Kabanata 20

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I've stayed at the hospital for almost a month. It's been a short while but, in a span of one month, too many circumstances we went through. We had been really exhausted from everything.

Dumagdag pa ang katotohanang kilala na namin si Adrian Vinson.

At first, I didn't believe that she was Adrian Vinson until, she was the one that confessed. I fought the urge to slap her damn face, when she apologized to us and admitted her mistakes.

How dare she?

How dare she took the lives of all the victims? Will her apology bring back those lives? No!

I could even remember the time, when she was trying her best to explain to me everything but, I didn't listen to her. Her explanation was damn useless this time.

"Allison... please, listen to me first." She said while tears are crawling to her face down to her neck.

"Wala na tayong pag-uusapan pa, Iana..." napailing ako, "or should I say, Adrian." I mocked. "Now, leave." Seryoso kong sambit sa kaniya.

"This is all part of the plan!" Asik nito na ikinagulat ko.

"What?" I raised my eyebrows. "Plan?" I asked, confuse. She nodded her head. "You... used me." Malamig kong sambit sa kaniya.

"No... it's not what you think, Alli." Her voice cracked.

"Shit, Iana!" I cursed out of anger. "How could you do this to me?! Tang ina, Iana! Hanggang kailan mo ako sasaktan? Ilang tao na ba ang nagamit mo? For what? For your own damn sake? Shit, Iana!" I brushed my hair out of frustration.

Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko sa kaniya. Sa dami ng gusto kong sabihin sa kaniya, mas pinili ko na lang na tumahimik dahil ayokong mas lalo siyang masaktan sa mga sasabihin ko.

I grabbed her hand and pulled her out of the room. Rinig na rinig ko ang paghingi niya ng tawad sa akin. She's also hurt but, I couldn't let my guard down just because I love her.

She broke my trust. She broke me. How could I even let her explain? It was painful to hear her words. Hindi ko alam kung maniniwala pa ba ako sa kaniya kapag hinayaan ko siyang mag-explain.

Para bang lahat ng sasabihin niya ay puro kasinungalingan na lang.

It was hard for me to accept everything.

Pinahid ko ang luhang pumatak sa pisngi ko. Masyado na akong nalulunod sa sarili kong emosyon. Masyadong masakit. Masyadong nakadudurog.

Sa lahat ng tao, bakit ikaw pa, Iana?

I bitterly laugh. "Damn you for breaking my heart." I stopped. "Damn you for breaking my trust. Damn you for giving me false hope. Damn you for everything you did to me." My voice cracked.

"Allison, tama na." Sabi ni Ylona sa tabi ko. "Lasing ka na."

I looked at her. "Buti ka pa, lagi kang nandiyan." I smiled. "Ang gago ng kaibigan mo." I bit my lower lip.

She wiped my tears. "But, she loves you."

"You call that love?" I lifted my brows. "Ang pagsisinungaling sa akin. Ang pagpatay sa mga tao. Ang paglilihim sa akin. Ang walang sawang pananakit sa akin. You call that love?" I mocked.

Umiwas ito ng tingin sa akin. "She was hurt, too. She loves you for goddamn sake. She only did that because she didn't have any choice. Masyado ka lang nabulag sa mga pagkakamaling nagawa niya "

Nangunot ang noo ko. "How could I even trust her, Ylona? Paano ko pagkakatiwalaan ang isang namamatay tao?"

She cupped my face. "Change topic. Do you still love her?"