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Ariana's POV

Y/n took her keys and left house, leaving everyone here with shocked expressions on their faces

"Ariana" Victoria said as she put her hand on my shoulder

"I should go get her" Logan said as he got up

"You coming?" He asked Carmen

She shook her head no and he sent her a gentle smile before leaving as well

"Fuck!" I said getting mad at myself

"It's going to be okay. She just needs to cool off right now" Frankie tried to comfort her

"I just cheated on her after I just accused her of cheating" I said feeling the tears form in my eyes

"You two will get through this" Courtney said

"Yea, you two are made for each other. There's nothing you can't get through" Carmen added

The twins tried to help too, but they didn't quite know what to say

"I'm so fucking stupid" I said

"Who even is that guy?" Scott asked

I shrugged. I don't even remember his name

"Hannah just wanted a kiss scene" I said

"And you just agreed?" Frankie asked

"At first no, but then I saw photos of y/n with another girls hand on her shoulder and I flipped out" I admitted

"You're so jealous" Victoria laughed

"I'm so fucked, that's what I am" I said

I let the tears fall to my cheeks and y/n wasn't here to wipe them. I don't know where she went, who she was with, or if Logan was able to catch up to her. I just sat here, doing nothing

"Shhh, it's okay" Frankie hugged me

I held on to him tight. For dear life even. Everyone soon started to hug around us so we were now in a big group hug

"I think I just want to be alone right now" I said once we all pulled apart

"We can't let you-" Scott tried to say

"I need to be alone right now" I basically demanded

Everyone nodded.

I say bye to everyone and they told me everything would be okay, but i knew that was a damn lie. Once everyone left, I closed the door and locked it

I didn't know where the dogs or piggy were, so I was really alone, but I needed to be alone right now. I need to think and process everything and how bad I messed up

I walked up stairs and decided that y/n probably wasn't coming home anytime soon, so I got a shower started. A hot one at that. I stripped from all my clothes and got in, letting the hot water run down my skin as my mind full with thoughts

I put my head against the really cold tile and just let myself sob, that's all I needed to do right now. In reality, that's all I can do. I don't even bother to wash my hair, so I didn't do anything, but cry, and not just any cry, ugly, shaking type of crying. I jumped to conclusions and I kissed someone else. I didn't even enjoy it, I just did it to hurt her because I thought she was hurting me

After calming down a bit, I turned the water off and dried my body with a towel before stepping out. I put on some comfier clothes and laid down in my spot in case y/n did come back and sleep in our bed. I was emotionally and physically exhausted, but I couldn't close my eyes, so I laid there with my fingers intertwined across my abdomen, looking at the ceiling, I started to think if we could actually over come and get past this. Obviously we would, we can't let this year that we spent together go to waste.

***

it was something around four am and y/n still wasn't home. I don't blame her. I wouldn't want to go home to my cheating girlfriend neither. I was soon taken out of my thoughts when I heard the door handle shake. I decide to turn my back so it was facing the door so that way I didn't see y/n, because I knew if I did, I would just start crying again, and I'm not sure if I even have any tears left to cry tonight

The heard the bedroom door click, meaning the door shut. Y/n let out a sigh before speaking

"Ariana?" She asked

I didn't respond

I closed my eyes to pretend that I was sleeping, I just wanted to sleep

"Alright, whatever" she said

The bed sunk on her side, telling me that she laid down

"You're fucked up" I heard her say. I assume because she thought I was sleeping

I know

"I can't believe you would do that to me" her words sounded slurred

I can't believe I did

"After everything I've done for you" she said

I'm fucked in the head

"I loved you"

Loved?

"Love. I love you" she changed it

Thank god

"I do everything for you. Everything, Ariana. If I'm not enough for you, then we're not doing what I thought we were doing" she added

We are doing what you think we're doing. We're getting married. I'm going to marry you

"I guess we'll talk tomorrow" she said

We will, I promise

That was the last thing I heard before she went silent and her breaths evened out. I closed my eyes in effort to go to sleep, but I didn't

A/N
Quick filler chapter. Kinda shitty, my bad lol