I've Been Executed

Chapter 14

Zajei's POV

Tahimik akong nakaupo sa may dalampasigan habang binabato sa dagat ang batong nahahawakan ko. Nakauwi na kami sa tinutuluyan namin dito sa Batanes pero umalis muna ako saglit sa room namin ni Yuki para magpahangin saglit.

Ang plano ko talaga ay dapat maglalakad lakad lamang ako pero I found an ocean na mukhang hindi masyadong napapansin ng mga tao dahil kailangan mo pang maglakad ng malayo para mahanap ito. Kung alam ko lang na mayroong ganito dito edi sana dito nalang kami nagswimming kanina kaysa doon sa isang beach na pinuntahan namin.

"Dinner is ready."

"I'm not yet hungry, Ma'am." Mahinang sambit ko nang maramdaman kong may bulto ng tao na tumayo sa likurang bahagi ko. "Bakit po kayo andito?"

"Finding you." She said in her monotone and sat beside me after I gesture her to.

"Maka-finding you po kayo parang Finding Nemo lang ah." I utter and give her a sly smirk.

Honestly, I want to be alone. Kaya nga ako umalis panandalian sa tinutuluyan namin para makapag-isip ako ng maayos tapos heto siya at nasa tabi ko, sinasabing hinahanap niya ako.

When I'm frustrated, extremely mad nor overthinking, I used to isolate myself. I don't want anybody with me because I felt like I'm being suffocated and much worst, I'm scared that the somebody who's with me got hurt because of the bad feelings I've been carrying.

And clearly now, I'm overthinking and my anxiety is kicking in.

"Ma'am, how deep are the ocean?" Basag ko sa katahimikan na namamagitan sa aming dalawa.

"I don't know, no one knows." She answered as I saw her pick the stone on her side and threw it on the sea afterwards.

"How deep is your love?" Nabigla man sa tanong na sinambit niya ay nagawa kong tumikhim at ngumiti ng bahagya.

That's the last thing I thought she would asked.

"Too deep that I felt scared if I ever feel it." Malumanay na sagot ko saka siya tiningnan at nahuling nakatingin na pala siya sa akin.

"Are you afraid to fall in love?"

I shook my head and smile at her while checking how good her physical features are.

"I am not afraid to fall in love, I am scared to the consequences of love." I huskily mumbled as I saw how her iris expanded and I felt that mine also did. "Love is the only thing that won't hurt us, but rejection, assumption, heartbreaks, and many more does. . . And how funny, it is all the consequences when you fall inlove, right?" I lean my hands on the sand and threw it at my side, still not able to break our eye contact.

"It is." Maikling sagot niya saka tumikhim at huminga ng malalim. "But, you will always find the good effects of love when you are truly and genuinely feel it. Behind those heartbreaks, you'll still able to love that someone even though you're suffering to the intense pain it causes."

I smile, a small yet genuine smile before my eyes landed on her reddish perfect cupid bow lips.

"I don't want to be stupid. . . in love." Wika ko saka siya muling tingnan sa mga mata dahil naaakit ako sa nunal niya sa gilid ng labi sa hindi ko alam na dahilan. That's the first time I felt arouse and take note, I felt it on a woman and that woman have a husband and a daughter.

Ghad!

"Be ready, then." She then said after our long eye contact and I was the one who diverted my gazes on the other side.

I really feel intimidated when it comes to her. Masyadong malakas ang epekto ng presensya niya sa akin lalong lalo na yung mga mata niya.

"Tara na, Miss Montero." Aya niya makalaon ang mahigit dalawampung minuto naming pagkakaupo sa gilid ng dalampasigan na tanging katahimikan lamang ang namamayani. "Dumidilim na---"