Tommyinnit Angst/Fluff one shots

(PA) 1. The list

this is the first one, so it will be bad. I'm trying to edit it, though

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TW: Transgender Tommy, mental abuse, child neglect, and depression

Tommy is a girl in this one to match the list, so he is secretly female to male, and his friends think he is a biological male. He's afraid of what his friends will think if they find out.

Tommy is at a rented flat in where some members of the smp are meeting. So far, the only one that is missing is Quackity

Tommy keeps a list of stuff he has never told his parents and most stuff he hasn't told anybody about and keeps it to himself

He took the list so he can add stuff if he ever needs to. He can not deal without it because if he doesn't have it, the voice becomes louder

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Tommy's point of view*

I just finished writing the last thing for today. Last week, I found out that sharing your problems feels amazing, but if you tell someone, then they'll probably blabber it out.

So instead, I keep a list of things my parents don't know and not even the closest people to me know

I put the list inside of my drawer and go to the living room with the others and talk about going on minecraft

"Hey, when is Big Q coming?" I ask the others

"I think he'll come tonight at midnight,"

"Thanks, Niki." I smile because she and Minx are the only other girls, and it makes me feel safer even if they don't know

Quackity's point of view*

I secretly go in to surprise them, but I see someone's door open, so, like any normal person, I go to snoop

'There are a lot of red and white T-shirts, so they must be Tommy's, but why are they so thick? Meh could be nothin' I walk towards his desk and open a drawer

"Oh just a stu- why the hell is it so long!....need to snoop." I open it, and I get shocked but more confused as I read the list

1. I have claustrophobia

2. I have a big fear of corners

3. I am very self-conscious even to jokes

4. I have had depression from a young age because of bullying, fake friends, teasing, emotional abuse, and fighting in the household for years

5. I really want a binder

6. I want to be a therapist so I can help other people or a doctor

7. I have ADHD just like my brothers

8. I try my best to keep my emotions bottled up

9. Whenever a series of me getting in trouble happens and they blame it all on me, I can not control myself, and I go to my room to cry

10. I want to go to therapy

11. I think I am fat and ugly every second

12. Everything serious that happens to me, I treat it like a joke

15. A stuffed octopus I have is a better listener than anyone has been

16. I just want to be like other kids and not have to constantly worry about doing one little thing wrong, and then my parents are in a bad mood and blame anything bad that happens on me