Anonymous Secrets [completed]

☆ Part 13 ☆

My head rested against Charles' shoulder and I could feel the warmth of his body through our clothes. He was playing with my hair, I could feel his touch through my whole body. It wasn't possible to tell where my body ended and where his body started. Our legs were twisted and I laid close to him. My hand rested on his chest and I could feel his heartbeat underneed. I love him, I love him so much. My mind went everywhere and nowhere. Laying her with him felt like heaven, but I was a little restless.

Charles wrapped his arms tighter around me and I moved my head to his chest. I could literally lay here forever. "Camille?"
"Hmm?" I mumbled as answer and I kept my eyes closed. In fact I crawled even closer to him. "You can talk to me, you know right? Tell me, what's on your mind?" He said with his sweet voice. I was surprised and opened my eyes. ''You noticed that I was thinking?'' I asked him. He rubbed with his thumb over my shoulder and upper arm. "Of course I noticed." He answered and he pressed a kiss on top of my head.

I looked down again and turned in his arms, so that we faced each other. "I was worrying indeed." I softly said and bit my lip. Charles sat up a bit and looked me deeply in the eyes. He took both of my hands and squeezed them gently. After he helped me sit up, I leaned against him again. Charles leaned against the wall and he had his arms wrapped around me.

"Well, I... I just really miss Pierre." I told him while I stared at the ceiling. The sun fell inside through the curtains we had mostly closed and lit the hotel room. Charles sighted and pulled me closer to him. "I miss him too."

"This whole situation is just messed up."
"Please, look at me, Camille." Charles begged me and I sat a bit up to look him in the eye. "Yes, it's messed up and maybe we made the wrong decision, but Pierre did too. I don't want to blame him, but I don't want you to feel bad either. This is not your fault!" It felt like he stared into my soul and I looked away with a sigh.

"But who does it feel like it's my fault?" I let myself fall against him again. I could feel his strong body under me and I let my head rest against his chest. His chest went slowly up and down under his breath. I could feel his breath playing on my cheek. "I don't know why you feel this way and I'll probably never know, but I do know that I feel horrible too. You lost your brother, I lost my best friend. All we have left is each other." Charles talked softly, almost like it hurted to only talk about it.

"Am I the only one who feels like it isn't fair that we have each other?" I hesitantly asked. "I mean like, we kept it a secret, we lost Pierre, Pierre lost us... Do we belong together?"
"Can you please say something like this never again?" Charles had a dangerous glanze in his eyes. "I have been unsure about a lot thanks to this situation, believe me. But there is one thing I have never been unsure about. And that's about us." He turned me around so that I sat on his lap. My legs were both on one side of him next to his hib. For a moment I stared into his beautiful eyes. I wanted to wipe away the hair that had fallen for his eyes on his forehead. I didn't touch him.

My breath couched in my throat when he lay down both of his hands on my face. Our hearts started to beat faster as he touched me. "I have no idea if we are meant to be together. I don't even know if soulmates really exist. But I do know that I truly hope that you'll be mine forever. And that I'll be yours forever. Because I love you, Camille. I love you and I can't picture my life without you anymore. By only the thought of it I almost start crying and-"

I shut him up by pressing my lips against his. I could feel that my cheeks were blushing thanks to what he had just said. It was too sweet and it had hit me hard, word by word. I just couldn't listen to him for any longer, it was too much and I sometimes can't handle it when people tell me things like this.

Charles moved his hands from my face to my neck. The kiss got deeper and more passionate. He pulled me closer to me and I pussed myself a little up with my legs. Our upper bodies were pressed against each other and I could feel every heartbeat of him. My own heart was running like crazy and it felt like it could explode every single moment.