Chapter 37
I stayed in my car and cried hard. Malakas iyong hagulhol ko but I didn't mind because I was inside my car. Thank God we had this tinted.
I just stayed there and cried everything out. Sobrang bigat na kasi sa dibdib. Araw-araw nga akong umiiyak para mabawasan iyong bigat pero para namang ganoon pa rin. The pain's still the same. Hindi nababawasan.
Slut.
Of all the words people can describe me, it hurts the most. I despise that word. Because that word does not define me at all.
I am not a slut.
How can people call me that when they don't even know what's really going on between Troy and I?
I know they don't want me to check social media but the curiosity just eats me everyday. Nanginginig iyong kamay ko nang mahawakan ko na ang cellphone ko.
I turned my data on and got a lot of notifications. For a minute or two, my phone did not stop vibrating because of the notifications I got.
I opened my facebook app first and I froze right there when I read what's on my feed.
For sure she seduced the instructor! She's my classmate in a major subject and hindi naman siya ganun kagaling. She probably seduced the prof to get a high grade. Matatalino kasi mga kakambal niyan. Siya lang iyong medyo tagilid. Kapit-patalim na siguro para hindi mapag-iwanan ng mga kapatid.
Hala, totoo pala to? Akala ko pa naman matino siya kasi mukha namang matino. Malandi pala. Yikes.
Ang dami namang lalaki diyan. Dun talaga sa professor? Kailangan mo ng mataas na grade teh?
What a slut.
So nilandi niya pala iyong crush kong professor? God, what a shame.
Hala, crush ko pa naman siya. Magaling yan kumanta eh. Lamig ng boses, parang anghel. May tinatago naman palang landi.
Nasa loob talaga ang kulo ay. Ang amo ng mukha eh. Akala mo di kayang gumawa ng kasalanan. Pero nasa loob talaga ang kulo.
Oh my God! I saw her entering Sir Troy's car last last month! Di ko maimagine ano ginawa nila doon. Yikes, para lang sa grades? Nakakahiya.
There are a lot more comments about me. Pero hindi ko na kayang basahin lahat kasi ang sikip na ng dibdib ko. Nahihirapan nakong huminga because of crying too much.
Nahulog ko iyong cellphone ko sa sahig ng sasakyan pero hindi ko na kinuha. I was clutching my chest because it's getting harder and harder to breathe. Pakiramdam ko mawawalan na ako ng hininga.
I tried so hard to breathe but it's really hard. Sumasakit na rin iyong ulo ko. I feel like vomitting.
I tried to reach my bag to get some water but I couldn't. My hands were already trembling.
"Oh God..." I managed to murmur before everything turned black.
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"Hey... Are you okay?" Faith asked. I just woke up and I'm already in my bedroom.
As far as I remember, I was in my car, trying so hard to breathe.
"Do you need anything? Are you hungry?" Love inquired.
"Si Troy?" I queried. Faith smiled at me as she caress my head.
"He was here earlier. Pero kinailangan niya ring umuwi kasi gabi na. We couldn't let him stay because Mom and Dad are coming home," she said.
I'm quite sure my parents already know.
