𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚎 𝚟𝚒𝚒𝚒

Happier Than Ever

I wrote this approximately 3 weeks ago, so enjoy :)

* It's now been like 3 months since I wrote this lmao

I'm doing good, I'm on some new shit. Been saying yes instead of no.

aRe yOu hApPiEr tHaN eVeR tHaT hApPiEr tHaN eVeR iS cOmInG oUt tHiS mOnTh? Yes. ( It's officially out and I'm inlove with the album, so yay :D )

dO yOu cArE fOr bAnAnA nUt cAkE? Yes.

dO yOu hAvE a sOciAL LiFe? Yes.

aRe wE iN tHe cLeAr yEt? Yes.

aRe yOu eXcItEd aBoUt yOuR BiRtHdAy? Yes.

iS tHaT pEnNypHiN iN tHe bAcK oF yOu? Yes.

aRe yOu eXcItEd aBoUt aTtEnDiNg HiGh sChoOl iN pErSoN tHiS aUgUsT, aNd hAvInG tO fAcE jUdGeMeNtAl mOoDy tEeNaGeRs wHo aRe 13x TiMeS cOoLeR tHaN yOu? Yes.

aRe yOu rEaLLy oKaY aFtEr eAtInG tHaT bAnAnA nUt bReAd aNd tOtALLy nOt cHoKiNg, iN dEsPeRATe nEeD fOr AiR? Ye- *gasps for air*

iS iT bRuTaL oUt hErE? Yes.

DiD yOu aNsWer tHeSe qUeStIoNs tRuThFuLLy? Yes.

: ̗̀➛ ʀᴇꜱᴜʟᴛꜱ: 2/10

1: ɴᴏ ᴄᴏʀʀᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ɴᴇᴇᴅᴇᴅ

2. ᴄʟᴀʀᴀ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴘᴏꜱꜱɪʙʟʏ ᴄᴀʀᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ʙᴀɴᴀɴᴀ ɴᴜᴛ ᴄᴀᴋᴇ ꜰᴏʀ ᴏʙᴠɪᴏᴜꜱ ʀᴇᴀꜱᴏɴꜱ

3. ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴀ ʟɪᴇ. ʙᴀʀɴᴇʏ ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴏᴄɪᴀʟ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴍɪx ᴡᴇʟʟ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ, ᴀɢᴀɪɴ, ꜰᴏʀ ᴏʙᴠɪᴏᴜꜱ ʀᴇᴀꜱᴏɴꜱ

4. ᴡᴇ'ʟʟ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʙᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʟᴇᴀʀ. ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʟᴇᴀᴅ ᴛᴇᴀᴍ ʀᴏᴀᴅ ᴛʀɪᴘ ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅꜱ ᴀ ᴘᴀᴄᴋ ᴏꜰ ᴡᴏʟᴠᴇꜱ

5. ɴᴏ. ᴅᴇꜰɪɴɪᴛᴇʟʏ ɴᴏᴛ.

6. ᴛʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ɴᴏ ᴘᴇɴɴʏᴘʜɪɴ ʏᴏᴜ ꜰᴏᴏʟ, ɪᴛ'ꜱ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ꜱʜᴀᴅᴏᴡ

7. ꜰᴀʟꜱᴇ, ᴡʜᴏ'ᴅ ʙᴇ ᴇxᴄɪᴛᴇᴅ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴀᴛ. ʙᴀʀɴᴇʏ ʜᴇʀᴇ ʜᴀꜱ ꜱᴏᴄɪᴀʟ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ. ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴇxᴘʟᴀɪɴꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴀᴄᴋ ᴏꜰ ᴀ ꜱᴏᴄɪᴀʟ ʟɪꜰᴇ

8. ꜱᴜʀᴇ ʙᴀʀɴᴇʏ, ʟᴇᴛ'ꜱ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ɪɢɴᴏʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜʀ ꜱᴇᴠᴇʀᴇ ᴀʟʟᴇʀɢɪᴇꜱ ᴛᴏᴡᴀʀᴅꜱ ɴᴜᴛꜱ

9. ᴀʟʟ ʜᴀɪʟ ᴄʟᴀʀᴀ ꜰᴏʀ ꜰɪɢᴜʀɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴏᴜᴛ *ᴄʟᴀᴘ ᴄʟᴀᴘ

10. ɪꜰ ꜱʜᴇ ᴅɪᴅ ᴛʜᴇɴ ᴡʜʏ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴇʟʟ ᴅɪᴅ ɪ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ꜱᴘᴇɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀꜱᴛ 7 ꜱᴏɴɢꜱ ᴛʏᴘɪɴɢ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜɪꜱ?

・❥・ now back to clara's "lovely" presentation about why she's doing good and on some new shit

・❥

・

So where was I before I was rudely interrupted by a dozen hundred questions? Ah, yes. After 16 days of not doing good I'm doing good. Yayyy??? It seems like I'm the only one doing good. Everyone else is ":((" and I'm really sorry about that.

Well I can't say much to make your day except always make the best of things. Instead of focusing on the bad things of life, focus on the good things! My pep talk is bullshit but at least think about it.

Okay okay, what I just said is bullshit but it's what keeps me going through the day. If I don't think positively then I return to a depressive state and I obviously don't want that.

I just want you to know that I care for you VERY much and I'm here :)) ❤❤❤❤❤

....

Back to me being a LoSt cAuSe ✨

Over Quarantine I've realized that when someone asks me question I tend to reply with "whatever" " good for you" or "It doesn't matter". Indeed a bad habit.

wHaT dO yOu wAnT fOr DiNnEr? wHaTeVeR

dO yOu nEeD aNy hELp WiTh DiNnEr? iT dOeSn'T mAtTeR

wHaT iS tHe sQuArE rOoT oF 0811ahhh? wHaTeVeR

dO yOu LiKe gUyS oR gIrLs? iT dOeSn'T mAtTeR

AiN't iT fUnNy? wHaTeVer

tHe wOrLd iS eNdiNg! wHaTeVeR

Well, you obtain my point. Right?

.. . . . 

For the first time in foreverrr

I don't know what to title this. I'm actually brain dead and sleep deprived at the moment. No Katy Perry, I'm not wide awake. No Billie, I haven't done that dance since my wife died. Don't ask questions. yOu dOn'T wAnT tO kNoW.

Don't expect this bullshit to be funny in any way.

My m-miiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnndddddddddd *hallucination occurs* I HALLUNCINATE WHEN YOU CALL MY NAME, GOT STARS IN MY EYESSSS

I just kinda wish you were-

Okay okay, back to me trying to write a proper chapter without dozing off.

Nah. I'll write tommorow. Good night!

. . . . 

*3 months later or so*

I've been doing semi-okay, I'm on some new shit. Been saying "yes" instead of "no" and I hate it *sob*

I'm supposed to be working on the foreword on that book I've been working on. Ah, procrastination is my best friend. I'll write later. At the moment it's HN time ayeee 

So I guess I'm still saying "no".

Did I just contradict my previous statement? Yes.

Am I not contradicting another statement once again? No.

Am I intentionally contradicting myself for the third time? mAyBe.

I really don't know what I was thinking back in July and early August when I was writing this chapter. IT'S CRINGE.

HN 14 (?) may be coming very soon. MY FUNNY JUICE IS BAAAACCCCKKK ( and the fact that half of this chapter was already written lmao ) 

I don't really have much to say. 

Uh-

LoAfErS.

LoVeRs.

LoSeRs.

LiViE

I'm not even trying, HELP-

THIS HORSE IS TOO SLOOOWWW

What the helloween?