Lauren Jauregui Imagines

Broken Promises part 2

Lauren's POV

My smile faded when I saw them running towards the ledge and some are leaving to go down. I turned around and my heart started beating fast. It was Y/N walking towards the ledge and she fell. I quickly ran to the ledge and screamed for her. But it was too late.

She was now laying on top of a car with a pool of blood.

I cried and layed down while holding my knees together. She's gone. Because of me.

"It's gonna be okay Lo."

I just sobbed uncontrollably. Because I know it's not gonna be okay. Nothing's ever gonna be okay without her.

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I then woke up gasping. I looked around and I was still in the hospital. I can still hear her heartbeat monitor beeping. I sighed while tracing my finger over the gauze covered spots.

She was alive.

I couldn't believe it. Even the doctors were shocked and they said it was a miracle. Now all she had to do was wake up.

I sighed and held her hand.

"I'm sorry. If all I ever did was hurt you. But here I am now asking for you to wake up. Even though you don't forgive me just please wake up. I still need you here." I said now crying still holding her hand. Though I quickly wiped my tears when I heard the door open.

"Lauren can we please talk?" Brad asked. I just looked at him and sighed while nodding.

I turned to leave but not before giving Y/N a kiss on the cheek. I closed the door and followed Brad.

"Talk." I said staring at him blankly. He sighed before looking down.

"I'm sorry for messing up. I'm not here asking for you to take me back. But for forgiveness." He kneeled down and looked up at me. I still stared at him blankly and shook my head.

"Then why now? Why are you asking me to forgive you just now?" I asked him and he just looked down.

"Because I only realized now what I caused. You never would have tried to suicide. And she never probably would've tried too." He said full of regret. I felt a sob caught on my throat when he mentioned her. He was right. I then shook my head and hugged him.

"I can't. It was my fault Brad." I sobbed onto his shoulder. He just rested his hands on my back and sighed.

"Look it wasn't your fault. Don't beat yourself about it." He said wiping my tears and caressing my cheek. I shook my head.

"You don't understand. I hurt her." He just looked at me in shock and confusion. We then sat down and I told him the whole story. The promise. Then her taking care of me when I was depressed. My attempt to suicide again. Her reminding me of the promise and confessing her love for me. I couldn't even look at him right now. I'm afraid he might judge me.

"How do you feel? What do you really feel for her?" He clarified while holding my hand. I looked up at him.

"I was in love with her too. I just didn't want to accept it." I held my forehead in frustration. I was so stupid. I know in my heart I was in love with her but I let my mind take over. Into thinking I was in love with Brad instead.

"People make mistakes Lo. And in my opinion, those mistakes makes us who we are right now. Stronger to face the consequences and life. But we shouldn't let ourselves down on these mistakes. So I say, chin up and remember mistakes aren't everything. Just a part of a journey we like to call life. Now that you know your mistakes, strive to do better. Don't let her go." That's what he said before leaving me to think. He was right. I then walked into the room and was shocked when people are surrounding Y/N.