MAKE ME STAY (MAKE ME GO BOOK ll)

Make Me Stay : Thirty Four

Mina

A mixture of a strong scent of alcohol and cigarettes offended my nostrils as soon as I get inside of Chaeyoung's car. I examined the whole vehicle and saw numbers of empty liquor bottles along with some empty packs of cigarettes

My face automatically formed a disgusted look and began rummaging my bag for something to cover my nose until I found a hanky. This is better than nothing else

I rolled my eyes as soon as Chaeyoung nested on the driver's seat with a smirk on her face not until her phone rang. Her smirk was replaced by a smile, a weak and sad one. For a minute, I forgot that her stinky car annoyed me a moment ago. Her smile suddenly distracted me even when I know it's not meant for me

The call wasn't that long but it's enough for me to examine her and her current state

She's paler and I think, she's even skinnier than the usual. Her lips were not even red nor pinkish, it's actually a bit lighter like it's almost colorless. Her dull eyes were surrounded by dark circles with an obvious reason— sleeplessness, or maybe something more,  stress perhaps

I don't know what happened to her. I don't even know when did she turned out like this. Seeing her in this state broke my heart. I once witnessed her turned out like this and it's when I cheated on her with Eunha before but this is even worse

She really looked like a mess, a big mess just like her stinky car does

After the phone call, her mood suddenly changed. She became timid and she looks like she's about to cry any moment. I ignored her and looked outside the window not until she spoke and notice that I'm covering my nose with a hanky

"I'm sorry 'bout the mess. I'm just too busy to even clean my car and—"

"Let's just go and get this all done"

I cut her off not because I hate her but because I wanted to get this all done. My wall that I decided to create earlier was slowly melting after seeing her almost crying.

"S-Sure"

As soon as she began driving, I secretly continued examining her again. She's too focused driving on the road not even realizing that I am now obviously staring at her

"Chaeyoung?"

Her eyes were still deeply fixed on the road. I called for her name numbers of time but she didn't even budge a little so I decided to tap her arm and call her name again, much louder this time

"Chaeyoung!"

The car suddenly halted out of the blue which almost knocked my head on the glove compartment of her car. She just looked at me blankly which even surprised me even more. I almost knocked myself but she's obviously oblivious about it and it angers me

"Are you out of your mind, Son Chaeyoung?! Why would you even stopped the car in that drastic way all of a sudden? What if there's a car behind us? Can you even imagine what the hell might happen?!"

"Huh?"

"Oh my God! You're unbelievable Chaeyoung. Do you want to kill us?! Fuck you! if you wanted to die, then kill yourself alone and don't involve me in your shits!"

I was so surprised by the sudden outburst of my emotions. I don't know why I acted that way and just frustratedly yell at her. I closed my eyes and expected her to yell back at me until I realized that she's not going to do anything