Fifty shades of Ereri (Levi X Eren)

Chapter 18

I furrow my brows and look at my feet. ,,Isn't that child rape?", I ask and Levi ironicly klicks his thoung. ,,Maybe, but that's so long ago, even if I went to the police, it wouldn't really do anything. I don't wanna do it anyway, so yeah.", he answers and I sight. We stand like that for a while, when Levi suddenly lifts my chin up. ,,I'm sorry, for what I said last week.", he says and i look at him confused. ,,You don't have to be. I knew you feel like that before, but hearing you saying it out loud was just a little too much.", I reply and he sights. ,,No, that wasn't okay. I just was...afraid." Huh? ,,Of what?" ,,I don't wanna hurt you. Like I told you. I'm not really able to fall inlove. I can't love you like you deserve it, that's why I'm trying to get you away from me. You'll find someone better, who'll love you with their entire heart, something I can't do." I bite my teeth together. ,,And I told you I don't wanna be with anyone else." Levi sights and roles his eyes. ,,You're driving me crazy, you know that?" I shrugg my shoulders, when I suddenly notice, that the redhaired women and Hanji are standing in the door. How long have they been there already? ,,Levi. With me. Now.", the redhead, I remember her name being Isabel says and looks kinda pissed of. Levi sights and noods at me, before he leaves with her. After they're both gone, I look at Hanji, not sure what to do. ,,Don't worry, I'll protect you.", she says and I nood slowly.

Isabel pulls me nearly through the enitre house, before she pushes me into a closet and pushes me against the wall. ,,What the hell was that?", she asks angry and I look at her confused. ,,Izzy, what the fuck!" ,,Don't you Izzy me and listen here you little shit!" What the hell is going on right now? Did I miss something here? ,,I've been tolerating this long enough now! I'm not gonna watch how you're pushing everyone away from you any longer!" Huh? ,,What do you-" ,,That guy loves you! Get it! And you love him too!" ,,No,I-" ,,Don't interupt me! I saw how you're looking at him and you can't tell me, that isn't love! Just fucking accept it and take this one fucking chance, before Eren leaves and I can listen to your melachonic shit again!" I look at my friend completely frightened and am not sure, what I'm supposed to do now. I've never seen her like that bevore and it creeps the shit out of me. ,,Whatever the fuck you want, just calm the fuck down!", I say with my teeth bitten together and Isabel slowly lets go of my collar. ,,Are you gonna tell him now?", she asks and I role my eyes. ,,I'll think about it. May I go now? 'Cause I don't think, that Eren wants to stay here any longer.", I answer and she noods slowly, before she goes out of the way, so I can leave the big closet. We go together back into the dinningroom, where the others are already waiting for us. ,,Eren, are you coming? We're going now.", I saw and Eren noods, before he gets up from his chair and walks towards me. ,,Oh, already? Sad.", Hanji replies and jumps up. There Isabel hugs me from the side and I sight. ,,Bye, bro. Promise to call me, okay?" ,,I'll try, okay?" After a while of saying goodbye, Eren and I sit in my car again, while I drive through the night. None of us says anything the whole time and I'm glad for it. I just think about what Isabel said to me earliyer. Am I really like that? Am I really pushing everyone away from me? And on the top: Do I really love Eren? I'm questioning my feeling for him for weeks now and the last week it was even worst. I never thought, I could ever fall inlove with anyone. What is love even? How do I know, if I have it? And what, if it's all just a big mistake? Ugh, I don't fucking know. There we already stand in the garage and I exit the car, Eren following me. After we're in my house again, I lean against the wall and sight. I look at Eren and bite my teeth together. Shit, I need him so fucking bad right now. But will he let me? With as sight I walk towards the brunette and place my hands on his hips. ,,Eren?" ,,Levi?" Ugh. ,,Are you still angry with me?", I ask quitely and look away. ,,Not really. Maybe a little.", he answers and I bite my teeth together. ,,I'm sorry." Huh? ,,Can you please stop apologising the whole time? It's irretating me very bad." I look up to Eren again and furrow my brows, without saying anything. ,,If you want me to go, just say it." What? No! ,,No, don't go!" Shit, that sounded stupid. ,,Why?" He's doing that on purpose. Defintly. He wants me to say it, but I won't. I won't let him win this. But I can say other things, right? ,,Because you're like a drug for me." What did I just say? ,,What do you mean with that?" Ugh, can he please stop asking so many questions? ,,When you're away, I feel terrible and think of you the whole time, but when I'm doing you, I feel bad too, 'cause I know, I'll never get away from you, but always tell myself, I will one day, though it's all just a big lie." The words come out of my mouth without my permission, but at least able, to put a little sarcasm in them. ,,I don't know, if you know it yet, but that's exactly what love is. Being addicted too this one person and not being able to stay away from them." I bite my teeth together. That fucking brat! ,,I'm not gonna say it, you know that exactly.", I say and wrap my arms around his neck. ,,I know.", Eren replies and gently presses his lips against mine. Shit, I needed that. Just a gentle, innocent kiss. Nothing more. But this little, innocent kiss turnes into a wild thoung kiss and I slowly feel an erection building up in my pants. We don't have to talk, we both know exactly, what we want. Carefully I push him in the direction of my bedroom and we leave a track of clothes behind us, until we're both just in our underwear. We don't break our kiss the entire time. After we're finally standing infront of my bedroom door, I push it open and pull Eren inside, before I push him down on my bed and crawl on top of him. ,,Please....I wanna indulge you.", the brunette says under hard breaths and I furrow my brows. ,,Oh, is that so?", I ask, kinda confused about what that's supposed to mean and Eren noods. ,,You're not planning to top, aren't you?" ,,No." I sight, before I turn him around, so he lays on top of me. Slowly he leans over me and presses his lips against mine and I close my eyes, when he starts to kiss down my jawline and chest. After a while he reaches my underwear and looks up to me, before he takes my thight and softly bites it. I breath in surprised. ,,Holy shit.", I whisper and bite my bottomlip. ,,Want more?", Eren asks and I nood slowly. He grins a little and pulls down my boxers painfully slow. ,,May I?", he asks with a sexy voice and I nood again. There he takes my dick into his mouth and I moan out in surprise, when he starts to suck. ,,God, Eren!", I moan and grab his soft, brown hair. Did I already mention, that his blowjobs are amazing? Probably.  I look at Eren again and see, he's red like a tomato and that also moans a few times. ,,Do you want me to watch you getting of to sucking cock? That's quite a kink.", I say under hard breaths and grin a little, but Eren just closes his eyes and I sight. There out of nowhere my orgasm crashes over me and I feel the brunette swallowing. He pulls back and looks at me. ,,Did I do good?", he asks with a grin, while I'm trying to catch my breath. ,,Yeah.", I answer and whipe my swet from my fourhead. Eren noods, before he takes his boxers off and climbes on me. Is he seriously trying to ride me? He never did this before. Will he be good at this? I don't fucking know. ,,Levi? Are you okay?", Eren suddenly asks and I look up to him again. ,,Did I seem like I'm not?" ,,You just seemed kinda off." ,,I'm not. Just keep on going." He noods. ,,O-Okay." The other male takes a deep breath, before he takes my hands and places them on his chest. Then he slowly slides himself on me and lets out a long, pleasurefilled moan. After a few seconds he starts to move and I carefully start to squish his perky, little man tits. This situation isn't supposed to be like that, but right now I just enjoy it. I can worry about all this other stuff later, I just don't wanna think about anything right now. Just Eren and me. Nothing more. ,,Fucking brat.", I groan with my teeth bitten together and Eren grins slightly. ,,Yet you love being with this fucking brat.", he replies and quickens his pace a little. Yeah, that's the problem. I love being with this fucking brat and something inside me knows, I'll never be able to get away from him. Didn't I want to think about nothing? There I feel Eren tightening around me, what tells me, he's close. ,,I-I can't anymore. Help me.", he moans and I know, what he wants me to do. Quickly I grab his hips and help him moving on me. A few seconds later he comes under a loud scream and his cum spits all over my chest. I come right afterwards, but we both know, we're not done yet. Eren tryes to start moving again, but I grab his ass and bend him over, before entering him again, gaining a confused look and some surprised moans. ,,Sorry, Eren, but letting you ride me all night isn't my style.", I say, before I start moving. This is about so much more than just having sex, I know that more than I wish I would. This is mainly about just being close to eachother and enjoying the other's presence. This is so wrong, so unbelieveble wrong, but I  don't care. ,,I'm coming again!", Eren suddenly shouts and I bite my teeth together. ,,I'm too.", I reply and pull his body closer to mine. It feels good coming together. Always, every single time. And so it does this time. We nearly come at the same time and I slowly keep on going afterwards. Just feeling him. That's all I need right now. ,,Levi, you can pull out now.", Eren suddenly says and I look at him. ,,Just a little more. Please.", I reply and gently press my lips against his soft neck. The brunette sights and runs his hand through my hair. After like five more minutes I finally force myself to pull out and role myself over next to him. He turnes around to me and I sight. Shit, he's so cute. Maybe... ,,Eren?" ,,Hm?" No, I can't. ,,Nothing. I-forgot what I wanted to say." ,,Oh, okay." I hate how sad he sounds. And it's defintly my fault. Like always. There Eren suddenly leans underarms and looks at me weardly. I look at him confused, while I try to order my hair somehow. ,,Come on, I know you love me." Oh no, this again. ,,Maybe.", I just say and look at the ceiling. ,,What means here maybe?"Ufff. There the talk I had with Isabel before comes to my mind and I sight. ,,I'm just...confused, that's everything. I've never had a relationship or even romantic feelings ever before." Oh my fucking god, why am I telling him this? ,,Then why don't you just try it?", Eren asks and smiles slightly. Ugh. ,,Different question: Why did you even come back to me?" He sights. ,,Usually I didn't even plan to come back. I did, because of something, my mother told me." I furrow my brows. ,,And what exactly did she tell you?" I instantly regret asking. ,,It's...kinda cheesy." ,,Tell me already."  He sights again. ,,When I came to my parents, my mother instantly wanted to know everything about you being my boyfriend." ,,Whait, what?" ,,Well, you told my father, you're my boyfriend and he told my mother, so it's technicly your fault." ,,Probably." ,,Yeah, anyway, then she asked me why I'm looking so sad, so I had to make up a quick lie. I told her, that we had an argument and that I'm not sure about us anymore. Then  she told me it." ,,What?" ,,She said, if I really love you, then I should fight for you, no matter how bad the chances are. You know, when it comes to fighting, I'm not giving up that easily." ,,Sometimes it's better to give up." ,,But I don't want to, accept it. Can we come back to our usuall topic now? That'd be great." I sight and look at the ceiling again. ,,I'm not good for you, I told you from the beginning.", I say and Eren grabs my wrist. ,,But I love you.", he replies and I bite my teeth together.  ,,Eren..." ,,Please stop running away from me the entire time. You don't have to hide from me, Levi." I can't handle this shit anymore! Fuck! ,,For gods sake, I love you too! Are you happy now?" I look at Eren again, whose expression is now a mix out of surprise and satisfaction. ,,See? Wasn't that hard, wasn't it?", he grins and cuddles  against me. ,,Fuck you." ,,I know, I know."