「One Last Time」

「 Chapter 18 | Make It To Me 」

Jin was losing his mind, he kept checking your facebook wall every moment at a time. He kept messaging you about non-sense, 

How are you?

That was all he said, all of it actually.

Please reply, I need you.

You sighed, getting slightly annoyed with him. You liked your lips then started to post at your facebook wall,

I need space, someone help me.

#TooTightForMe #BabySlowDown

You then sighed, slightly regretting. Then Jin commented,

Oh. 

You then sighes, you licked your lips then ignored it. You sighed, you then stood up and grabbed your scarf around your neck then got your coat. You wore it then you walked to a parlor, you then asked if someone could cut your already long hair. Then you remembered that Yoongi always played with your hair, you then stopped then just asked if they could just put bangs. They agreed.

Jin licked his lips, he was nervous. He then looked at the mirror, it took you a month to think. How long does it take for you to answer him? His heart sinked at the thought that maybe you were waiting for Yoongi to wake up. The only person to change your mind. The only person that can take you away from him again. He then put his hand at the mirror, coming closer to it. His hair was still wet, he took a shower while thinking. He then bit his lips, his hair was already getting long again. He didn't want to bother his hairstylist, or neither going out. He'd get a crowd full of ARMYs, he then kept licking his lips. He then grabbed his headphones then turned it on, he felt like sulking down at the corner. He then put it on his ears then played random songs, a song then caught his eyes. Make It To Me. Sam Smith. That one british singer. He must be new then, he clicks it then the opening sent shivers through his spine.

My mind runs away to you

With a thought I hope you'll see

He then bit his lip, his eyes looked down then he laid down his bed. Staring at the ceiling like an total idiot, even if the others saw. It was nothing to him. Even if he looked like he was going insane, he was just going insane because of you. He was losing his mind, losing his mind to you. You were the only one that he thought, he didn't care about his health. The others did, but he didn't. He wasn't heartbroken, just used to getting lost in thought. He was used to getting lost by just thinking of you.

Can't see where it's wandered to

But I know where it wants to be

He knew he was creeping you out too much, he knew he was being too possessive. But he knew what he was doing, he was too obssessed, yeah, but he knew he wasn't. He mind just ends up to thinking you, he was wadering on his own in his mind. He didn't mind, he actually enjoyed it. He knew even in the simplest ways, he would always end up into thinking you. He always knew that, he tried forgetting you but eventually he still ended up thinking that smile of yours. He loved the way you called him, " Oppa! ", it was always so soft and kind but it changed eventually. He knew everything changed, but it was like the problem with him. Always the problem with him, he always got stuck at his thoughts.

I'm waiting patiently

Though time is moving slow

He stared at nothing, getting lost at his own thoughts. He waited for you, he waited for the answer. He was being patient with you, tried to as least but he knew he was. He was being patient, the most patient he was. He always tried, mostly when it came to you. But time was being rough on him, being too slow for him. It was like time was testing his patients, knowing that he can be very slow with him but he did wait. That was all he could do, all he knew to do. Wait. That was all of it, he could wait patiently but it was always too slow. He didn't complain, he just hated waiting for too long. 

I have a vacancy

And I wanted you to know that

You're the one, designed for me

He liked his lips while he closed his eyes, this song was too deep for him. He felt his eyes sting, so he just closed his eyes to at least stop himself from crying. He shook his head then stopped the song, which broke his heart to small pieces. He licked his lips then unplugged his headphones from the phone while removing the headphones from his ears, he knew he was being too tight with you. He was strangling you too much, but he wanted answers. Answers that was from his heart, he wanted to talk to you more about them. He wanted to lay down at a grassy place with you then look at the stars while talking to each other, then something popped into his mind. Maybe you were waiting for Yoongi to wake up, that one guy that made him lose you. He hated Yoongi for doing that but he knew how naive Yoongi can be sometimes, he wanted to straightforward tell Yoongi to stop taking you away from him. He wanted to be upset but he didn't want to either, he knew better than get upset to the young one. He sighed, then checked his phone. He saw a new selca from you, he sighed with a smile. He loved that smile, it always made his heart skip a beat. He then fixed himself at the phone then took a selca as well, he posted it at @bts_twt to inform the fans that he was alright. Look alright at least, but it seems that they didn't believe him. He sighed, tweeting something like " I'm alright. :) " then maybe they would believe him for one last time. They didnt believe him actually, again. He just chuckled at how stubborn the fans is, and how hard he could make them believe. He didn't bother anymore but he laid back down and fell asleep, that was the only things he did anymore. Sleep and text you, Namjoon was getting upset at how he doesn't eat that much anymore. Jin mostly drinks and eat small meals, which makes him thin. Which makes the other members worry about him alot, but Jin doesn't listen for a moment. Not even a little, nope. He won't agree to them, he wasn't the same.