「One Last Time」

「 Chapter 25 | Blame 」

JIN'S P.O.V

Last week.
Last week was the moment you got shot, the moment you died in my arms, the moment I lost you. Today was the burial, I bit my lip as I threw more white flowers while It rained, I was crying. Everyone was comforting me but at the moment, who would feel better when the love of your life died? No one, losing a member of a family is different from losing someone you loved and always will love.

We all got home soaking wet, I closed the dorm door then Yoongi grabbed my collar, " IT'S ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT!! SHE WOULDN'T HAVE DIED IF IT WASN'T FOR YOU, YOU ASSHOLE! " he screamed at me, I looked away then he bit his lip then punched me, the impact pushed me to the ground, " HAJIMA! " Namjoon said while holding Yoongi back, " It's all your fault, All of it is?! " Yoongi screamed while squirming away from Namjoon, " It is my fault, It really is. I break everything, I was the one that killed her, but you just have to accept the fact that everything falls and scatters! " I screamed while holding Yoongi's collar, " IF SHE DIDN'T MET YOU, THIS SHOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED! SHE SHOULDN'T HAVE DIED, AND YOU CALL ME AN ASSHOLE WHEN YOU ARE OBVIOUSLY THE ONE THAT STOLE HER AWAY FROM ME, " I screamed louder then punched him, " It hurts to see her with you, it hurts to even see her die infront of me, do you ever think of how it feels to lose her all over again?! " I whispered while falling down to my knees then crying, " I want to die, I just should have been the one that died, I want her to live. " I whispered, " Those little memories with her, I loved every moment of it, but It just wasn't enough! " I cried louder now, " I didn't was to lose her but I just did, " I sobbed, punching the ground, " I'm the one to blame, I'm the person that should have died, I'm the person who felt worse than you. " I said while angrily wiping my tears, " You feel angry because you lost her but did she die infront of fucking you, Yoongi?! Get mad if I was the one that killed her, IT WAS AN ACCIDENT! A wild bullet shot her, Yoongi, and you didn't see her die infront of you like I did, now think about it before telling me that I killed her. " I said while glaring at Yoongi while he held his cheek, " She loved me more that she loved you, " I said then Yoongi stood up and punched me again, punching me a lot until Namjoon pulled Yoongi away, Yoongi was cussing while I stood up and walked to the dorm room where I sleep at and fell asleep crying. I woke up and checked my drawer to see a long lost friend, a blade, I used to cut my wrist when I was young, because Of my fingers. People mocked me about them, even though I was diagnosed because of it, I hated myself but killing myself wouldn't make me end up in heaven to see you then I hid it again and fell back to sleep.

Weeks one passed again, everybody knew I wasn't eating and getting out, Namjoon walked into the room. " Hyung, Come out and eat. " he said while I had swollen eyes, I walked to Namjoon then grabbed the emergency gun at our drawer, then I handed it to Namjoon while kneeling infront of him and pointing the gun at my head, " Sh... Shoot me, I want to die already, Namjoon. " I begged, " Kill me already, I don't want to live anymore. " I said with tears streaming down my face, " Do it for me, " I said then I covered my face, he threw the gun then sighed, " I'll see what I can do, hyung, " he said as I heard his footsteps, he must have walked away, I sighed then fell back to sleep. I woke up, " Hyung, go to the park where she died. " Namjoon said, " Arraso, " I said before taking a bath and wearing simple clothes then I walked outside, the fresh air going through my lungs once again, I walked to the park and sat down.

NAMJOON'S P.O.V.

" Shoot him exactly at the stomach, " I said, " Yes sir, " he said, I was nervous actually. Everyone at the dorm was quiet, Jimin helped Yoongi with some bruises, Hoseok kept quiet, Taehyung and Jungkook silently ate, they must have all meant to be quiet. " Do you really have to kill him, hyung? " Jungkook asked, " he wanted to die, so he will like how she did. " I said, " You should have shot him rather than hire a hitman, " Yoongi said, " Shut up, I couldn't shoot him. " I said, then I contacted Jin's phone, " Yeoboseyo? " he said, " Stand up, " I commanded him, " Okay. "

JIN'S P.O.V.

I stood up like Namjoon said then..

I felt pain at my stomach, I looked at my stomach to see blood, the kids and adults at the park were shocked. Kids were crying but all I heard was your voice, " W... We can be together again, Jagiya. " I whispered, it was my last breath, then I closed my eyes as a pool of blood was created because of my blood, Seeing you for one last time was my death wish.