Cw/Tw// self-harm , suicide mention , suicidal thoughts , repeated words
*BUZZ* *BUZZ*
His phone vibrated waking him up from his drowsy haze he picked it up squinting at the light coming from the screen that almost lit up his entire room, his eyes adjusted to the light and he saw the notification.
"Look who's here"
A twitter notification from Karl with an image attached
Him and
...Nick.
They had been talking about meeting up again but not this soon, they planned to all meet up, why didn't they tell him, it's supposed to be all three of them
"of course," he whispered hatred lacing his sorrowful voice
He replied with a simple sad face, so no one got their hopes up and to hopefully remind his boyfriends about their plans
It must've worked considering he almost immediately received a dm from Nick on discord, he didn't want to talk to them right now,
Once again he's left out,
Once again he's forgotten,
Hot tears welled up in his drooping eyes, he'd been so busy lately, barely getting 4 hours of sleep every night and surviving purely of caffeine and sugar.
He layed in bed, cold, tired and alone.
He just wanted to be gone.
Things would be so much better if he was just, not there.
He sighed dismissing the thoughts,
He didn't want to... kill himself, no.
He could never do that, hurt his friends? No.
But...
No.
Things aren't that bad,
Just calm down,
Breathe
There are people who would do anything to live the life I'm living, I can't just throw it away because my boyfriend's met up, that's so stupid, I'm so stupid.
Why do I feel like this,
Thoughts raced through his head,
His chest felt so heavy and full,
Yet he had never felt so empty.
I just want it to stop
I want it ALL TO JUST STOP.
Why did it hurt so much,
He could feel his heart breaking with every breath,
But why?
God he was so confusing,
It was a miracle his boyfriends had dealt with him up until now.
He sat up his movements stiff and painful.
*buzz* *buzz*
He heard the faint sound of his phone buzzing,
He moved his hands around the sheets searching for his phone which had been buried somewhere when he sat up,
When he finally found it, he turned it on to see that Karl had messaged him as well.
Fine I'll answer your stupid message,
He tapped on the notification,
The message on his phone screen imprinted into his mind,
Repeating over and over again.
YOU ARE READING
Karlnapity Oneshots !
FanfictionFirst time writing, sheeesh, constructive criticism is ok and encouraged (I need all the help I can get :/) I do not ship these people irl I only ship their personas, Quackity not Alex, Karl but not irl Karl yk and Sapnap not Nick, ok we good👍(plus...
