about a queen

for it's your birthday and I don't want to wish you

i wrote this one when days were disappointing us but we're still coming back to each other at the end. when we were still trying our best to hold onto this. and i knew we were heading for a dead end but i thought we'd manage. but we couldn't babe. they won. and you don't have to be sorry. you tried your best!

you're a gentleman with a dark smoke about you

with you somehow i let myself lose

i can see parts of me within you

like how i am reckless at times

how i take risks and walk on tracks

you're like me and that's why it makes sense

when it's seven in the morning

and we haven't slept

stable life, home sweet home

is not for us

our fire would die if we're to leave our smoke

with you i can't think of a

nice house, nice neighborhood

with you i can only see chaos

us burning the whole city down

digging our graves as we're having fun

playing with the shovels and the sand.

i thought you could make me a calm one

but you're not the calm one

i wanna do bad things with you

but im scared that the time maybe short

but i all i wanna be with you is reckless.

we're walking on the two sides of tracks

and we're laughing so loud we can't hear the

blazing horn behind

we're playing with knives and shovels and sand

and unknowningly digging our grave.

this is my life now. i want this. i have prayed for this. for pain. for recklessneess.. and let it be. people wont want to see me this way.but my life will still be mine.