I'm Not Okay {FIN & EDITING}

{62} Special

Rhett helped me to clean the kitchen and he tried to fix the wall that I ruined. He didn't actually "fix" it. He just putted a picture of me and my family when I and Eden were younger. I stared at the picture of us and smiled a little. Eden had his tongue stuck out while my dad ruffled my hair and I had one eye opened and the other one closed. I had the biggest smile on my face. My dad had his other hand around my mom's waist and she was kissing my dad's cheek with a smile on her face. It has got to be the best picture I had ever had of my family.

"You look happy," Rhett commented behind me. I felt his breath on my shoulder and I rubbed it.

"I know," I said and blew some dust away from it. I removed my eyes away and walked upstairs into my room. I heard footsteps behind me. Rehett was following, and I didn't object. When we got to my room, I closed the door and jumped into my bed, staring at the ceiling. I felt Rhett crawl into my bed and he lay next to me.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He whispered. I closed my eyes and sighed. I opened my eyes and shook my head.

"No, not really," I whispered back. My voice cracked. I felt his warm hand grabbing mine and I took my eyes away from the ceiling and looked at Rhett. His brown eyes were filled with sorrow and anguish. Why was he like that? He shouldn't be like that. It was my problem, not his.

"Why are you sad?" I whispered.

He chuckled and gave me a small smile. "I'm not."

"Do I look stupid? I know you're sad. I can see it in your eyes."

"You like my eyes?" He asked with a small smile.

I blushed as I punched his arm with my right hand. "I didn't say that, asshole."

He raised an eyebrow and the sorrow and anguish disappeared from his eyes. "So I'm the asshole now?"

I smirked. "You were always were."

He shrugged and smirked back. "I can't blame you. I do like as-"

"Dude!" I laughed. Rhett laughed with me and then I felt fingers on my stomach. I laughed around when the fingers started to move. Holy crap! He was tickling me!

"R-R-Rhett! S-s-stop! I-t-t h-hurts!" I gasped for air and continued laughing. I felt heaviness on top of me and it was Rhett.

"Are you going to be sad? Because I hate seeing you sad, and you have to stop it!" He said.

I shook my head and tried to get away from him. "O-o-okay! I won't be sad! J-j-just stop!"

I felt him stop and I sighed. I wiped my watery eyes and when I can see clearly, his face was close to mine. We stared into each other eyes and didn't say anything. The only we could hear was my breathing.

"You have a beautiful laugh," he whispered.

I rolled my eyes. "No I don't."

"Yes you do. I haven't heard you fully laugh."

"I haven't laugh in a long time."

"Why not?" I shrugged, "It's just a laugh, nothing special."

"You know what's special?"

I rolled my eyes again and said "Please don't say me. That's lame."

"Nope." He said popping the p. I raised an eyebrow.

"Then what?"

"It's special how I can make you smile, blush, and laugh. It shows me that you're opening up." I was going to say that was bull but everything he said was true. I have opened up to him and it felt good. Too damn good but also it felt right.

"Why did you kiss me?" I blurted out. The question has been nagging me and I wasn't going to survive if I kept it just to myself. I had thoughts that he would like me and it clearly showed that he liked me but...I knew he liked Alexandria too. Maybe even loved her. He only liked me or just was fucking with me. He smirked and got close to my face that I could feel his breath brushing on my face.

"Your kisses are special to me." Then he gave me a quick kiss on the lips and got off of me. He lay next to me and I wanted to know why they were special to him. Instead, I sighed and grabbed his hands and stared at the glowing stars in my ceiling.