Y/n returned to college after her parents death in hope to maintain her life there normal so the secret of her parents death stayed a secret. Not one soul knows, or so she believed.
She comminted to herself to never give another her heart. Un...
I arrived in class, my eyes ignored Jungkook who was in our normal spot. I sat on the opposite side of him in the very back as far away from him as possible.
He stared at me confused but I just put on head down and ignored his glare towards me. The entire hour I could feel his eyes on me. In a class of a hundred of people, I knew it was his eyes and I knew they were on me.
The second the professor said we were good to go, I ran. I didn't bring a bag for a quick escape. I knew he was behind me. I refused to look. I don't know if I'm strong enough to face him.
"Y/N! WAIT" he shouted as he gripped onto my arm, giving me no choice but to stop.
"Didn't I say to never contact me again?"
"Please, let me explain everything. I know I messed up, fuck I did more than mess up." He said
"Who was it?" I turned around and looked him dead in the eye. Would he attempt to lie to me, or would he tell me the truth? "Who's girls pussy could you just not resist?"
He paused. A long pause that I hated. "Her name is rose"
"R-Rose?" I snatched my arm away from his. "What about you saying you love me? Was it a lie? WAS EVERYTHING A LIE?" I shouted making everyone eyes in the halls turn to us
"Can we talk somewhere more private?" He stepped closer and said in a low tone. "Please" He begged "Just follow me and I'll explain everything."
He stepped in front of me, me following stupidly. I kept my head down on the ground until we reached the rooftop. I stood leaning over the edge, waiting for him to begin his explanation, which he never did.
"So, explain" I demanded
"I'm so sorry Y/n." Was the first thing out his mouth.
"You're fucking kidding me." I swung my body to face him "I didn't ask for a dumbass apology Jungkook." My eyes narrowed "You wanted to explain so go ahead. Explain."
His gaze hasn't moved from the concrete under us. "Rose came to my place yesterday saying she was in town for a few days and needed a place to crash so I offered the couch"
Why even offer?
"I promise the entire time she was in the living room. Until when you called." His voice broke, I would have thought he was going to cry. "she came into the room. I'm not going to lie to you. I allowed her to."
"Allowed her to what?" I gritted my teeth.
I don't care how brutal the truth is, I want every detail. I need every detail.
"Did she suck your dick? Did she ride you crazy? What did you allow her to do?" I asked again.
He took a deep breath, for once in this conversation, looking me in the eye "I fucked her. I did everything Y/n." He responded with the most honest answer possible.
"H-How" I didn't even know what to say. He admitted it to me. "okay." I managed to speak out. There wasn't anything to accept, it was laid out right in front of me. "I'll come pick up my things later."
"Y/n, wait" he said, grabbing my wrist to keep me near him, once again. I could easily keep walking but he knows I wont. He knows I'll stop every time."T-Thats it?"
I rolled my eyes and pushed him back "What do you expect Jungkook?" He stayed silent "I heard you say I'd never compare to her, so what else is there to say? If you want her, go to her Jungkook. Don't let me hold you back."
And I walked away. My heart staying with Jungkook, me walking away empty. The second I reached the safeness of campus I couldn't hold anything in.
Tears run down my face, silent whimpers escape my mouth as I slowly walk back to my dorm. What is this pain? It hurts so much and I can't even see it. I can feel it, and it hurts so bad.
"Club again!" Jennie cheered as I entered the apartment.Her cheers quickly came to an end when she saw me. Her eyes had worry written all over them."Oh god, what happened?"
Before I could respond Yuna walked in the door with a girl me nor Jennie has seen.
"Guys this is our new roommate" she smiled "Rose"
My heart sank "R-Rose?"
"Yeah, she enrolled late but since we have an extra room they placed her in here" Yuna cheered, a small clap following after.
Rose bowed her head, swinging her hair behind her ear to reveal a hickey in the middle of her neck. Call me crazy but, it's worse that I know what Junkook's hickeys look like. I've been covering them up for months.
"Is everything okay?" Yuna asked.
I took a deep breath and put on a fake smile "Welcome to the best dorm, Rose" Can't let her know how much she has ruined me. "Let me to show you to your room"
She thanked me before I left her to unpack and returned to Jennie and Yuna in the living room. They were hunched together on the couch, the small sound of whispers coming from them.
"She seems nice" I sat in a spot farther away from them.
"Y/n, you don't have to do that" Jennie stated.
"Do what?" I asked
She looked at Jennie before looking back at me "You don't have to pretend like you're okay. The women that your boyfriend cheated on you with is sleeping right next to your room."
"Don't you think I understand that?" I whisper under my breath to her. "You don't have to remind me of my current situation. I know that less than 24 hours ago my ex boyfriend dick was inside her." I finally snapped "So please Jennie, don't constantly remind me how fucked up this is. CAUSE I KNOW" I got up and walked into my room, slamming the door shut.
Why is rose living right next door to me? Out of all the dorms she had to be placed into mine, into my home.
Falling for Jungkook was certainly never apart of my plan, I was going to hide in men. Sleep with anyone and not get attached to one person. He ruined that the second we met.
As much as I wish I could, I'm not strong enough. I'm a runner. I can't stay. The pain from my parents was unimaginable, I ran. I got rid of everything, deleted myself in any system. I was a ghost, and I will become one again.
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Dear Jungkook,
I don't fully understand why you did what you did, or why I'm even writing this letter to you. But I figured even if you don't read it, someone will.
You broke me in a way I didn't know was possible. I thought the deaths of my parents was going to be the most painful thing I have to endure in and life and you showed me another kind of pain. The people who use to make me laugh and smile, who made me the happiest I've ever been, now know the pain I wished to avoid. Everyday has been a constant reminder, and for two days I got to experience happiness and now I hope, you get it for the rest of yours.
