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Thursday, April 1

Kate Morton

It was officially spring. There's almost a 1-month break between the two races for the guys so everyone went home.
I did the same and was just washing the dishes after lunch. I was waiting for my mother who used to come home after 4pm. While washing dishes, my favorite music was playing on the radio, I was forced to sing.

"Cause you know this
'Cause you know this sound

In the middle of the night, in the middle of the night
Just call my name, I'm yours to tame
In the middle of the night, in the middle of the night
I'm wide awake, I crave your taste
All night long 'til morning comes
I'm getting what is mine, you gon' get yours, oh
In the middle of the night, in the middle of the night, ohh"

But I successfully cut my hand while washing the dishes.

-F*ck, --I said than I turned off the tap and set off to look for a wound dressing

I didn't find a wound patch anywhere. I started to get angry, at that moment they rang. I looked out the window and saw a white Mercedes car.
I opened the door in surprise. It was Lando.

He was in black pants, the sun was starting to go out outside and he looked very good in those lights

-Hi Kate, am I not bothering you? , --looking at me with green eyes

-No, of course not, --I said in confusion.-- Feel free to come in.

Lando walked into our little house which was beautifully painted. Dad did it before he died. Anytime I look at our house, Dad comes to mind. He was such a wonderful man.

-Do you want anything? , a coffee or water?

-The water will be good, thank you. Your finger is bleeding anyway, Lando said.-- He seemed very attentive

-Yes, I haven't found a wound patch yet,-- I said in surprise. First I gave him the water and then I finally remembered where I left the wound patch.

Lando watched me intently, then I noticed he is looking something into the living room.

-Is something wrong? ,-- I asked quietly

-Nothing, just ... can I see good it's a drum?,-- He smiled involuntarily...

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Lando's velvety gaze made me smile too. I wondered why I shouldn't let him close to me, because he would never be mine anyway. You have to die it every day to learn to live.
Lando got up and went into the living room

Is it okay if I play on it? "He asked, then sat down behind the drums and started drumming.

No, of course, I answered, but by then there was loud music coming out of the house.

I went into the room too and sat down in the armchair. I was just staring and I didn't know what was going on with me ... Dad used this instrument last time...he couldn't play drums as well as Lando
I just listened to the sound of the drum and memories crossed my mind. It was good to watch this boy start to become a part of my life again, but what am I talking about. After all, Daniel is there ...

-Kate ! Katee...Why do you look like that? ,-- Lando abruptly stopped drumming

I picked up my head and tried to come up with a meaningful answer

-Well, I was just thinking. You play drums very skillfully, the world should see how talented you are in this too,-- I said and I get up from the armchair

-Do you really think so? --Lando asked.-- I've thought about it a lot, but I don't dare ...

-Don't do this --, I pushed the boy to the side.-- You're an F1 driver. You can do anything!

-Yes but ...

-Hello,-- shouted Mom suddenly. Mom has arrived and Lando is in the house. How am I going to explain this? Well, to tell you the truth, that's how things finally turned out ...

-Hi Mom! Here we are in the living room

-I saw a white car in front of the house, Daniel is it, right? I've been wanting to know him for a long time,-- Mom said

-Hi Mrs. Morton,-- Lando stepped next to me

-Hi Lando, I'm even happier for you, Mom said, -and I gave her a sharp look.-- You're staying for dinner, aren't you? Because we're going to do some great food, aren't we, Kate?

-Of course, of course...--over the years, I have learned to not say no to my mother. It does not make sense.

-I can stay, I have nothing to do today,-- Lando said and then hugged my mother

So there were 3 of us in the kitchen. My mother, Lando and me. We turned on Lando's favorite music and started making dinner. I wanted to make tomato paste so Lando put the water to a boil. Then Mom gave the tomatoes to him to cut them up.
The atmosphere was so funny. I laughed that much a long time ago and finally felt at home again. Everything seemed perfect.

-Help, --Lando said. --The onion is burn

Mom and I both broke out in huge laughter.

-How could someone be so unfortunate,-- I said with a laugh, then took Lando's hand and helped him into the bath

-Don't leave me here, Kate, I scalded my finger, --he said in despair

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-Dinner for young people, --Mom said from the dining room

We were sitting at the table , having a wonderful little dinner. This surprised me all. This tenderness, this tranquility ...

-It was very delicious, --Lando said

-Well, the work of your hand is in it too,-- I told him, I looked into his eyes and smiled. I didn't think I would ever make my favorite food with this boy

-I also liked it all because I can meet so little with my family. We never do things like that. I envy you.Indeed! I know it's hard to believe because I can't cook either, but I want to spend so much time with my friends and family. But it can not be. That's why I thank you for finally coming with me to the first race as well

-Lando darling, we're proud of you and it's like you're part of our family, --Mom said

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After dinner, Lando left. I escorted him out the door and that's when I think I was going to discover something in myself.

My goodness. Should I break up with Daniel? But then what about Peter and our secret?...

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I wish everything was simpler and easier ... as soon as Lando stepped out the door, Daniel called me. Forgive me that Daniel lives in Monaco while I am in England. We can't always be together. The races and the days ahead are enough

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