Temptations Alastor X Reader

serotonin

PS: the song goes by fast, good luck catching up!

Sing already!

I take a deep breathe bringing the microphone up to my mouth, just feel the music. I smirk to myself hearing the music begin. "I'm running low on serotonin."

"Chemical imbalance got me twisting things."

"Stabilize with medicine."

"There's no depth to these feelings."

I take a few slow steps forward along the stage, still keeping my head low to the ground.

"Dig deep, can't hide."

"From the corners of my mind."

"I'm terrified of what's inside."

I look up at the bright lights on me as I walk along the edge of the stage a bit faster, I make hand movements to my head making it seem like I'm crazy.

"I got, intrusive thoughts like cutting my hands off."

"Like, jumping in front of a bus."

"Like, how do I make this stop."

"When it, feels like my therapist hates me?"

"Please don't let me go crazy."

I put on a really good act while dancing along the stage. Gripping my head, desperately hugging myself or simply seeming like I'm in pain..am I?

"Put me in a field with daisies."

"Might not work, but ill take a maybe."

I shrug at the last word while looking at the crowd helplessly. I add a few simple and smooth dance moves to keep myself going along with the rhythm.

"Oh, been breaking daily."

"But only me can save me."

"So I'm capitulating, crying like a fucking baby!"

I looked angry with that one, adding some real emotion into it. I want this to be as real as possible, maybe even relatable.

I walk along the stage frustrated while holding my head with both hands and making the microphone levitate a few inches above me, I start mumbling or speak nonsense trying to process all my thoughts and emotions at once.

I shake my head a bit looking stressed or out of breath and reach up to grab the mic again.

"I'm running low on serotonin."

"Chemical imbalance got me twisting things."

"Stabilize with medicine."

"There's no depth to these feelings." 

I grip my chest giving off a hurtful or frustrated vibe, am I frustrated or actually angry..to the point I'm in pain?

"Dig deep, cant hide."

"From the corners of my mind."

"I'm terrified of what's inside!"

I drop the microphone letting it levitate a few inches above me again, I pull off another act of my insanity.

"I got, intrusive thoughts like-"

"Burning my hair off!"

"like, hurting somebody I love." 

"like, does it ever really stop?"

I looked at the crowd in pain as my head fills with too much I cant comprehend, I cant handle all of this, I need a break, I want to be free from this prison in my head.

"When there's control I lose it!"

"incredibly impulsive." 

"so scared I'm gonna end up doing something stupid."

"But I try to contain it!"

"Oh, it gets so draining..."

"Its like my heart is failing."

"every night, I'm contemplating."

Please! I need help, but ill never ask for it...its all up to me, its all on me..

"My inner voice is saying tough." 

"So I try to brush it off."

"Yeah, I try to brush it off!"

It still hurts me, I cant keep brushing it aside forever...I look out at the crowd giving a conflicted look while hugging myself almost desperately. 

"I'm running low..on serotonin.."

"Chemical imbalance got me twisting things.."

"Stabilize..with medicine."

"There's no depth to these feelings.."

"Dig deep, cant hide!"

"From the corners of my mind."

"I'm terrified of what's inside!"

I used my powers to make a bunch of neon lights go crazy around me, they would move with the bass of the music and pulse more becoming larger and larger while surrounding me. I started speaking nonsense while holding my head and fake stumbling around the stage, once the song ended I stood straight looking at the audience and the neon lights quickly absorbed back into me.

I had to catch my breath, realizing how much energy I actually put into all that. I swear everyone could hear me almost gasping for air. Did I do good? The large crowd was silent for a few moments but quickly filled the room with cheers, whistles, and lots of clapping.

I stood there with a shocked face for a few seconds before quickly grabbing the mic from above me, I waved to everyone with a toothy grin on my face. I actually did it! They loved it! 

I loved it...will I ever feel this free again?

don't get too excited

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Word count-754

This one is short but I really hope you enjoyed! I put a lot of effort and even some emotion into it! I really love this chapter and hope you do too. I will write for you all again soon!

~Urban~<3