I swear to god, in this lifetime and to my next life, I will never be like my mother. I will never cheat to the man I love. I will never have two boys at the same time. Not gonna happen.
But destiny fuck me so hard. Why does it have to be like this? Am I becoming to the woman I hate the most? No... no way.
"Ada, come to my office."
It was dad. It's been 30 minutes since he said those words. And I'm still here in my room, afraid to go out to talk to him. I know why he called me to come to his office. But I refuse to think that he will force me to this. I hope he will understand and be patient with me.
After a lot of thinking, I've decided to come to his office. Malalim akong huminga habang naglalakad papasok ng kompanya. Sana nga mali ako ng naiisip, sana hindi parin ito tungkol sa bagay na inayawan ko ilang taon ang nakalipas.
Nang nasa tapat na ako ng pinto ng opisina niya ay sinalubong ako ng kaniyang sekretarya. Ngumiti ito sakin kaya sinuklian ko din ito ng ngiti. She is pretty!
"Ms. Ada, kanina pa po kayo hinihintay ng daddy niyo." ngumiti ito.
"Sorry, traffic." ngumisi ako.
Tumango ito sakin bago binuksan ang pinto. Inalis ko ang ngiti sa mukha ko habang papasok. Ang kaba sa aking dibdib ay mas lalong nadagdagan. I hope dad won't disappoint me.
"Ada, Iha, come here." sabay ngiti.
Ngumisi ako bago siya sinalubong ng yakap. Nang bumitaw siya ay pinaupo niya ako sa silya na katapat ng kanya. Now, here is the real thing.
"You called for me, because?" inunahan ko siya.
Tumawa siya sa sinabi ko. Kilala niya ako. Alam niyang may paninindigan ako at prinsipyo. Alam niya din na hindi ako magpapatalo at magpapasindak. Saan pa ba ako magmamana, edi sakanya lang din.
"Honey, calm down alright."
Ngumisi lang ako bago umiling. Ayoko ng paligoy-ligoy.
"Can you be straightforward, dad?" I asked.
He sighed. Kumunot ang noo ko ng makita ang reaksyon sa mukha niya. It is a mixture of pain, anger, love and disperation. What the hell!
"You need to marry Zyhxillian Dawson." seryosong sabi niya.
What the fucking fuck?
Marry?
Marry someone I don't fucking know?
Is my dad crazy? Just what the fuck!
"Oh honey don't give me that look." he look apologetic.
"Dad! What the fuck is this again?" I can't help it.
"Watch your mouth, Acantho Dauntless!" he shouted.
Umawang ang labi ko at marahas na napailing. Now he is shouting at me! Una, ipapakasal niya na ako sa taong hindi ko kilala. Pangalawa, sinisigawan niya ako. At ano ang pangatlo huh? Pagbabatiin niya kami ng manloloko kong ina? Fuck, I am overthinking this!
"No, dad. I will never marry someone I do not love." I said coldly.
I am a king myself. I will not be a servant of any men. Not a chance.
I left his office with too much pain. Parang sinasaksak niya ang puso ko ng paulit-ulit. He claimed to love me so much. Pero bakit parang pinamimigay niya ako? Bakit ipapakasal niya ako sa taong hindi ko man lang kilala? Ayaw na ba sakin ni daddy? Tangina naman, I'm still 25! Anong alam ko sa pag-aasawa?
I can't believe my dad. I can't believe him! Hindi ko kailanman maisip na magagawa niya saakin ito. Pakiramdam ko binabaliwala niya ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi niya pinahahalagahan ang nararamdaman ko! Magkatulad lang sila ni mama, sarili lang nila ang iniisip nila.
