"e-emma" my mother breathed out
"yea mum?.." I called back to my mother on the floor
"in the closet, there is a loose floor board...open it" she whispered in my ear
"Listen your not leaving me..." I said holding on to the last peace of hope i hade...
It's been an hour of me and mattheo getting information on the Russians and it's been quite successful we found out a lot of things
my shoulder is starting to kill me though I think the pain killers have worn out cause it's killing me
I remember Dominic putting the pain killers on my bedside table so Me and Theo went to my room and I took the pain killer and I got changed into this:
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then me and mattheo decided to go to kitchen and we saw everyone in there talking including that Evie girl
"Hey princessa" dad said and everyone looks at me and Theo "dad what I have said about calling me that in front of everyone" Theo said sarcastically rolling his eyes
Which made me laugh "you look hot" holly said looking at me I laughed at her and got my keys from the key hook
"Where you going hunny" Ella said to me "I have a couple of things to do but I'll be home by 9" I said putting my black trainers on
"but it's 3pm what's going to take you 7 hours to do?" Ace said "none of your business" I argue leaving them all confused
I got into my car and started it and drove off to the grave yard, I told some of my men to bring my mums body to a graveyard in Spain so she's not far away
I finally got there and I parked the car and got out and walked towards my boot and took out a blanket, my mothers grave was on a private property, away from everyone else's graves
I put the blanket on the green grass and sat down
"Hey mum... I'm living with my dad now he knows I'm the shadow and I have 5 brothers Ace, Nicolo, Sebastian, Mattheo and Nathan they are all pain in the ass I can't lie but I'm starting to get use to them... I just don't understand why you wouldn't tell me that you were pregnant? if you did all of this wouldn't be happening... is the baby's dad... Darren? god I really hope not. But he probably is. I think that Darren killed you after you gave birth so he could use the baby against me, I was in my office today and I was thinking what if Darren knew you were the Spanish mafias wife and so he pretended like he didn't and he got you pregnant on purpose just to have a leverage over us I don't know it could be possible... god mum why couldn't you just told me there's this guy called Dominic and he's strong, handsome I don't know how I feel about him right now but I'm trying to work on it... i want you to know that you couldn't have loved me better you were my mum, best friend, therapist I can't believe your gone, I will take our revenge to that Bastard. I wish you were here with me god I could kill for one of your hugs. when you said your last goodbye, I died a bit inside you brought out the best of me. I miss your smile and how it would light the whole room up anyway I have to go Iv been here for 2 hours now I'll come see you soon I love you mum always" I say with tears running down my eyes
I then wipe my eyes and get up and pick them blanket up and fold it and walked back into my car
And put the blanket back in the boot and got in the car, I looked in the mirror to check if it looked like I was crying but i didn't thank god
then I started the car and drove to McDonald's and got some food and went to a beautiful beach where the sun was setting and there was no one there so the only thing you could hear was the waves crashing against the sand
I parked my car in front of the view and started eating my McDonald's it was mine and my mums favourite thing to do eat a McDonald's at the beach while the sun is setting
god sometime I forget to just look around and admire the little things I stayed there for a good 3 hours and decided to go for a drive so I did
It's been 2 hours of me just driving around Spain admiring the lights around all the buildings mum would of loved this...
then I just all of a sudden started crying what the fuck is wrong with me why am I crying
then my hands start to shake really bad so I decided to drive strait home so I did I was in-front of the house and I walked in with my head down so no one can see my eyes
and was about to go to my room until I hear my name being called but I quickly ignore it and keep my head down and went to my room
I quickly locked my door and went to my wardrobe and changed into some comfy clothes then I heard a knock on my door
"em open up before we break the door down" I hear Ella say behind the door "I'm busy" I shout holding back my tears
"Somethings wrong unlock the door hunny" Ella said with a soft tone
I finally gave up and unlocked the door. "What?" I say opening the door expecting only Ella to be there but there was all my brothers, my dad, kacey, holly, ella and Dominic
"have you been crying?" Holly said coming into my room with her eyebrows knotted
"listen I'm fine" i say tuning my back against them and walking away to my desk with my laptop on it
"that's your problem your always fine" nic said coming closer to me "what's up" ace said looking sorry for me
"For fuck sake I'm fine" I shout with tears poring out my eyes my legs felt like jelly until Ella came to me and hugged me and I hugged her back instantly
she remind me of my mum to much, I felt like I was hugging my mum which made me cry even more and then my legs collapsed to the floor but Ella wouldn't let me go
I finally stoped crying and my eyes felt heavy and all I saw was darkness
