I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK (1)

4

Thousands of promises like the stars in the sky.

VIVERLEE ALTHEA
2 YEARS AGO

To the CEO I love. . 

"Are you seriously leaving me like this?" He questioned me in disappointed tone of voice, as if he never once expected any of these from me. As if, he expecteed that this was the last thing I would do to a Daniel Solentino.

. . To my future M.D Alferez. . 

He grabbed and pulled my arm gently, pero binawi ko agad kamay ko sabay sa pag taas ng boses ko, "Sol, tama na please!" 

"Tama na!" I begged. 
"Nakaka potangina na e!" 

To my man who'd always understand try to understand me even if I'm so inadequate. . 

"What?? Ano ba ang nakakapotangina? Ha? Do you think just by yelling cursed words at me will help us solve our problems?!" 

"US?! ANONG US, SOL?! NOT ONCE, KASALI KA SA PROBLEMS KO!" 

To my  better half, if a day will come where our fates will change, please fall for someone that would and could take good care of you hanggang sa huling hininga niyo.

He lent out an aggressive sigh, as he closed his eyes and massaged the bridge of his head before he soke to me, "Vee. . ."

I looked up, took a large amount of deep breaths. As much as I want to, ang hirap ko talagang intindihin. I'm sorry for not being able to be as greater as Alexandra. 

"Vee. . " Hinawakan niya ang magkabilang balikat ko pagkatapos naming humihaon. 

I can't look at him like this. I can't stare at him in a pity way. "Look," I tried to start speaking kahit labag pa 'yon sa loob ko. Kahit hindi pa ako handa. Kahit napipilitan lang, I tried.
I tried to speak.  Hanggang sa makakaya ko, I'll try to let you know me best. I'll try to let you know how I feel, Sol.

I want you to be the better half of me as well. I want you to know me best too.

" 'Wag ka munang mag salita until I'm finished." I took a 5-second calm-deep breaths before I started,

"Alexandra. . " Sa part palang nang pag mention ng name niya, it pains me, sobra. How can I be someone so simple, yet so sophisticated like her? How can I achieve all the things she achieved in a short span of time? 

I pushed Sol's hands away from me, "I get it, I will never be as good as her." Sabi ko, sabay sa pag tanggal lahat ng mga earrings ko.

"Kaya ko namang gawin 'yong mga nagawa niya. Kaya ko namang maging successful before ako naging 21. I can be richer than her before ako naging 19. Pero pa'no kasi? That's not what my happiness means." I turned my back and wiped all my tears away.

"Your family seeks for perfection. I seek for happiness." While wiping all my tears away, I stared on to the stars,
"Tama nga naman sinabi ng mom mo di ba? Why settle for less, if meron namang isang Alexandra sa harap mo?" 

"Is that it? Is that why you've been acting weird for these past few weeks?" Tanong niya sabay sa pag patong ng jacket niya sa magkabilang balikat ko.

Maarte kong pinaikot mga mata ko, "Di ba sabi ko hindi ka hindi ka muna makasalita unless tapos na ako?"

"Ay sorry, ma'am."

Sigh, "Sige, mag salita ka na, manglait ka na. Sanay naman ako." Hmp, for all I can remember, we spent our childhood days hating each other. We'd both call each other some sick, and rude names. 

Sol laughed softly and patted my head, "'Yan lang ba problems natin?"

I furrowed my eyebrows as I looked at him, "Ay pisti ka?"

"O? Ano nanaman?"

"You're not included on my problems, Sol! 'Wag kang feeling."

"But what my girlfriend's problem, is my problem too." 

My cheeks started to feel so hot, it felt like my face was slowly turning in to a red pepper. "Stop that."

"Ay? Ayaw mo?" He teased.

"Yawa! You're so cringed naman!" I laughed so loud. 

"Just please shut up!" I grabbed him my his arm and threw it away, "At isa pa, kanina ka pa sige hawak sa ulo ko! Stop it!"

Sol cleared his throat before he spoke, "But, for real though. ."

"Hmm. ."

"There'll always be someone better than you. There'll always be someone who can speak louder than you. Basta!" He grabbed both of my hands,
"Knowing that you're happy with what your doing, makes me happy."

"Pero iba gusto ng parents mo." I cut him off.

"And ang gusto ng parents ko, hindi ko naman gusto." 

I rolled my eyes as I sighed, "For now, cringe pa lahat ng ito. For now, masabi mo talaga na walang kwenta ang relationship natin because you know that I might still meet a lot of people. I might still meet a lot of girls, beautiful ones. But please," He locked me inside of his arms, 

"Please give me some time to prove to you that all of this will be worth it?"

"My Sol. ." I called softly,
"I trust you." I whispered. "Please don't let me down."

"You have my word, my Luna." You've got a lot of promises, Sol. . Kasing dami ng mga tala sa langit. Ba't naman ako matatakot kung gawin mo naman lahat 'yon? I trust you. . I really do. Please don't hurt me in a way of letting me down.

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A/N: Oo, and your pending works trust you too. Tapos after last 2 chapters, mag modules/assignments ka na, girl ha? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Anyway, thank you for reading chapter 4.1 sana masarap ulam niyo forever.
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