I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK (1)

10.2

Ray of sunshine

VIVERLEE ALTHEA

"Naalala mo pa ba 'yong mga panahon na. . lagi pa kitang tinatawag na Ros?" He questioned with a smile on his face it was like he was longing for a yes. He was secretly hoping that I could still remember it.

"Oo," Naalala ko pa. .  Pero huli na nga. It was too late for me to remember na Ros ang tawag niya sa akin dahil siya pa ang nagparemember sa akin ngayon.
"I actually. . . never knew the actual meaning of it." I looked down as I admitted my words while scratching the back of my ear. 

He laughed softly, this time, he kept caressing my other hand, "It just means Ray Of Sunshine. Ang cute lang kasi pakinggan kasi you're the Sunshine, tapos ako ang Sol." 

"You're my ray of sunshine. Sadyang noon, hindi ko lang talaga alam anong mafi-feel ko sa iyo. What can I say? Batang bata pa tayo no'n na time. Akala ko, tumitibok lang puso because. . you're always there. Lagi kitang nakikita, laging nakakausap. . Pero hindi e." My heart started to throb as he said those words.

"Anong hindi?" I questioned.

He looked me deeply in the eyes, "Via, honey. . I. . Started falling for you when we were kids because, you were you. You are you. . Pero hanggang ngayon, you're still you." He laughed, 
"I loved you dahil ang tapang mo. I fell for the way you think of life, the way you were so dedicated in your dreams and on studying."

Sol gave me a lot of nicknames no'ng bata pa kami, I thought all of them were just mean names para magagalit ako o di kaya para habulin ko siya.

"You're my ray of sunshine, Via. . You're my happiness. And. . ayaw ko'ng ipagkait ang kaligayahan ko." He started stuttering. His hands started to become cold.

"Alam ko'ng ang raming mali sa relationship natin. I know there are a lot of things that we have to forget, correct, improve. . " He looked down and sighed, 
"Now, I wanna ask the same thing again. . Pagod ka na ba?"

I tilted my head and laughed softly, "Solentino. ." My throat started to ache. Dama ko ang bawat sakit. 
"Ayaw ko'ng mag sinungaling. . " 

I took my hand from him as I wiped away all my tears, "Sol, nahihirapan ako." 

"Your eyes tells me the same thing." He tried his best not to cry. I hate seeing him cry. I don't want to see him cry.

"I love you, Sol. . Pero, oo, napapagod rin." I laughed.
"It feels like we're in an LDR kasi. Naalala mo pa rin ba ang monthsary natin?"

Sol looked me and nodded, "Hindi ako nakapag punta at nakapag greet." But why, Sol? Is it because of your work, nalimutan mo na kung sino ang lover mo? 

"Bakit? I wanna know." 

"I got. . caught up sa time, I forgot na natapos na pala ang araw." He looked down, as if he too, is also disappointed sa actions niya lately.

I scoffed, "Solentino, seryoso," I eyed him, I can't waste any time. May trabaho pa 'to siya. Ayaw kong makadisturbo pa.
"Lately. . I. . I noticed," I cleared my throat, trying to force myself not to cry. "I noticed that, I've been having intrusive thoughts."

"What kind of thoughts?" 

I looked away. Pati sa pag sagot sa kaniyang simpleng tanong, hindi ko kaya.

He nodded, "I get it. . " Sol. . Please forgive me for all of this. But I also want to figure things out. 

"Gusto ko lang sanang. . sabihan ka na gusto ko'ng mag cool off muna tayo?" after I said those words, tinignan ko siya. But he just kept on nodding, and nodding habang tinititigan ang hangin. C'mon, say something. . Please say something. . Please get mad at me. Please tell me to give you a second chance. Please tell me that those intrusive thoughts I had in mind aren't real--- Do something, Sol. . Please? 'Wag mo sana akong hayaan mag isip at mag desisyon para sa ating relationship?

 It's so stupid of me na mag co-cool off pa, e hindi na nga kami halos sumasama. Hindi na nga kami naguusap for a week na nga. 

"Sir Alferez?" Biglang napatingin kami ni Sol sa babaeng tumawag sa kaniya,
"It's time to go."

"Andito ka pala." Sabi ko kay Alexa. Akala ko kasi, kami lang ang nandito para mag date or at least mabigyan ng quality time. Haha, baka nga talaga wala na akong oras o pati panahon para sa isang Solentino Alferez. 

"Whatever makes you happy." Sol stood up and gave me a forehead kiss before he walked out. 
"Just call me when you need me."

Bigla akong nakaramdam ng kirot sa puso as I kept watching him walk out. So, gano'n lang? Walang explanations? Walang motivational talks para ipagpatuloy ang relationship without a cool off? I can't believe lahat nang 'to is actually happening right before me. 

I stood up and tried to catch him, but Alexa suddenly spoke, "Baka gusto mo bigyan kita ng schedule para pang appointment kay sir Alferez?"

I turned by back to face her, "Hindi ako pang appointment lang, Alexa."

Alexa just smirked at me and sophisticatedly rolled her eyes, "Wala ka man lang idea kung ano nang nangyayari sa boyfriend mo."

"O, tapos? Shouldn't it be Solentino, my seven-year boyfriend tell me that? Joiners ka, girl?" Giit kong pagkasabi sa seven-year boyfriend before I sarcastically smiled before I turned and left.

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A/N: 👀🔥🧯