I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK (1)

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Misery

VIVERLEE ALTHEA

Ewan ko ba kung saan ako magsisimula. Ang bilis ng pangyayari e. Everything flashed right before my eyes within just a snap. 

---FLASHBACK---

I sighed, "Minsan." I bit my lower lip, trying my best not to cry. Of course I want to see Sol, but no right now. . Pero if not now, then when? Maybe when I'm a bit okay? Pag medyo lumamig lamig na ang mainit ko'ng ulo?
"Kumusta ka naman?" I tried to switch the conversation.

I wanted to talk to him about how he feels, but then. . his phone rang, "Ah, busy pa rin." I uttered. Sinagot na ng cellphone niya ang sarili ko'ng tanong.
"Mauna ka na. Baka hinahanap ka na ng dad mo." I laughed softly.

"I'm so sorry." Sorry for what, Sol? Hindi mo ito ginusto. Complicated lang talaga ako ngayon. So, I should be the one who's sorry.

"It's okay. I get it." And after that, he left me without adding anything else. Napatulala ako sa malayo as I hear his footsteps slowly fades.

My eyes suddenly widened as soon as I heard Omorfia's barks, at pag lingon ko, there goes our dog! Running after Sol. "OMORFIA!! BALIK DITO!" 
I tried to run as fast as I could pero ang bilis tumakbo ng maliit naming aso. My body started to quiver in fear, biglang lumamig ang pisngi ko. Natatakot akong baka pag labas ni Sol, lalabas rin si Omorfia. Pag lumabas ka kasi, open road na siya.

I could hear my heart pounding so loud, begging to God that Sol closed the gate bago man siya lumabas sa apartment-- Nang nakarating ako sa gate, it felt like my body went numb. 

Hindi gumana 'yong hopes ko kay God. 

The gate was open. . Sol's gone. .  And the worst part is, I saw Omorfia lying on the ground, surrounded by people that I usually see sa tuwing lumalabas ako ng apartment. As their heads turned to look at me habang lumalakad palapit kay Omorfia, crying, my neighbors mouthed words na hindi ko maintindihan.

"VIA! ANG ASO MO!"

"VIVERLEEEE!"

"Hindi kasi sinarado ang gate! Nakalabas tuloy!" 

As I knelt down to carry my dog, halos hindi man lang ako makaiyak sa nangyari. I was too stunned to think what to do next.

"ANDITO NA ANG AMBULANCE!" One man yelled.

It felt like my chest was squeezing me. Ewan ko. Ewan ko talaga anong maramdaman ko. Omorfia's blo*d was dripping all over me. Basta ang alam ko, Omorfia's in a critical condition.

***
"Paki bantay nalang muna kay Arketa. Hindi naman 'yan m-makulit," I sniffled before I continued to speak, 
"P- pakainin mo lang." 

"'Yan lang ba? Wala na?" Andy asked.

"W-wala na." 

"Papunta na dito si Yjie, baka may gusto kang ipapabili?" 

"Wala n-na. Thanks, A-and-dy." Wala na rin akong nararamdaman. I feel like there's nothing in me but full of pain and misery.

***
"There seems to be a problem kay. . Omorfia? Oo, nagka blood loss, tapos merong---" I abruptly cut them off when I heard Omorfia's name mentioned by a doctor talking to another doctor.

"Doc? Anong nangyari? Okay lang po ba siya?" I started to notice that my chest was getting tighter and tighter, hindi ko na iintindihan ang nararamdaman ko.
"Doc? 'Musta si Omorfia?" Sunod sunod kong pagkatanong.

"Ma'am, ma'am. . Please. . Please calm down." The veterenarian suggested. Kanina pa kasi ako iyak nang iyak dito, they told me to calm down first kaya lahat ng mga updates hindi nila dina-direct sa akin. 

Why's everything falling apart before me? I started to breath heavily, and my vision started to get so blurry. Hindi ko ba alam kung dahil ba 'yon sa mga luha ko baka talagang nahihilo na ako.

"Ma'am?? Can you still hear me?? Ma'am?!! Please. . . "

***
Subsequently, as I woke up, kasama ko na si Yjie. "Nasa'n ako?" Pagaw ko'ng pag ask.

"Hospital. Andy's at the Animal's Hospital, he's talking good care of Omorfia." Beside me was Arketa, sleeping peacefully.

"Ba't ako andito?" I tried to sit up.

"NO NONONONONO, don't sit up. Just lie down. . I need to talk to you."

Next thing happened was, we were talking about some deep matters about my personal problems.

---END OF FLASHBACK---

Pagkatapos naming mag usap ni Yjie about sa nangyari kay Omorfia at sa mga problems ko, inatake naman muli ako ng asthma. The nurses and a doctor assisted me with it, as things got sorted out well,  Yjie spoke again, "You need to tell Sol what happened."