I'll love you forever (Calzona)

Chapter 29

Arizona's POV

Over the past month I sat down with Callie and we planned out everything, we knew it would be difficult for her to do it herself

Planning your own funeral is something I would have never thought I would have to do,

Even if it was terrible, we got it done and was able to spend the last 2 weeks doing nothing but spending time together

This week however.... The medicine wasn't enough, and Callie and i both knew what that meant

When I woke up this morning Callie was already out of bed and it was 9am,

I knew she had to get up and get paisley at 7 and I sighed

Today's the day, I can feel it and I hate that feeling,

I felt too weak to even get out of bed and I immediately felt the burn of tears in my eyes

"Callie!" I yell out, well... not really yell

"Momma! Momma wake!" I hear paisley shriek and run into my room and begins to try and climb onto the bed

"You got it bug" I smile and she pulls herself up and climbed right into my lap and Callie comes in

"Hi momma" paisley giggles

"Hi babygirl" i chuckle and kiss her nose and Callie sits on the bed and puts her hand on my leg

"Paisley why don't you go get some toys and bring them back and me and mommy will play with you" I say and she nods rapidly and slides off my bed

"Callie" I sigh once paisley was out of the room

"It's today" I tell her and she shakes her head

"No, it can't be... I'm not ready... paisleys not ready" she says while her voice breaks

"I know.... You should probably call my mom, she can come watch paisley" I tell her and she nods and kisses my head

"I will" she sighs and paisley runs back in

"Got them!" Paisley smiles and throws them on the bed and I quickly wipe my eyes and Callie helps her on the  bed

Callie and I then began to play with our innocent 3 year old, our 3 year old who has no idea what is going to happen

After half an hour Callie went to get paisley a snack and call my parents

"Come lay with momma" I tell paisley and she climbs into my arms and lays her head on my chest and I grab a necklace off of my night stand

"That's mommas" paisley says and I smile

I wear it everyday but I took it off before going to bed last night

It it a heart locket, one side it the first photo Callie and I ever took together on the other is a picture of the three of us at paisleys party, I had just changed it out

"You're right" I smile

"But... momma wants you to keep it, can you keep it safe for momma? Forever?" I ask and she tilts her head

"But momma wears it" she says confused

"I know, but I need you to wear it now. Can you do that?" I ask and she nods and I carefully place it around her neck,  knowing Callie will take It off of her before bed and make sure she keeps it safe

"You like it?" I ask and she nods

"Thank you momma" she tells me and I hold her tightly and kiss her head

"You're welcome babygirl" I tell her and Callie comes back in

"Look mommy!" She tells Callie and Callie smiles sadly

"I see, that's mommas necklace" she says and looks at me

"Momma gave it to me, I got to keep it safe" paisley says and I smile

"That's right,.." I smile

We then cut a movie on and paisley ate her snack while we watched it and I could feel my eyes becoming heavy, but I knew if I closed my eyes I wouldn't open them again and I refuse to die in bed with my daughter

Just then the door opened and I knew it was my mom and her and my dad made their way to our room and Callie walked out with paisley so I could have a moment

"Hi" I say tiredly, still trying to keep my eyes open

"Oh my baby" my mom cries and comes over to me and brushes my hair back with her hand

"Don't leave her, she can't do this alone" I tell them with tears in my eyes

"Never, we will never leave her" my dad says and I reach out and hold his hand

"I love you guys... and I'm so thankful for you both and everything you have done" I say and my mom and dad both kiss my head

"We love you so much zona... so so much, you are everything and more than we could have asked in a daughter. You gave us a daughter in law and granddaughter we love." My mom says and I smile

"I'm going to miss you" my dad says and I look to him

"I love you" I say quietly

"I'll go tell Callie to come in" my mom says and I nod and her and my dad kiss my head once more before walking out

Just a little bit longer

Callie walks in and immediately came over to me

"Callie... I want you to move on, I know I said not too but I want you too, if you find someone who you love and paisley loves then don't feel bad" I tell her and she shakes her head

"Zona" she sighs

"And paisley... don't let her forget me, make sure she knows how much I loved her, and make sure she knows how proud I am of her" I say, tears steadily coming down my face

"And.. and.. let her have her nini, I know I was hard on her with that but shes going to need it" I say and Callie wipes her tears

"Callie I love you.... You are the love of my life, my soulmate and I'm sorry that I'm leaving, I wanted nothing more than to just spend forever with you" I say

"I'm tired" I cry and she leans down and kisses me and I kiss back as best as I could

Callie them got into bed with me and wrapped her arms around me as I became increasingly more tired

"Im so tired" I cry and she kisses my head

"You can go" she says

"Whenever you're ready... you can go" she says

"I'll always love you Zona... our daughter will never forget you. Whenever you're ready you go," she says and with her reassuring words I close my eyes

"You don't have to fight anymore, you fought as long as you could and I'm so proud of you" she says and I feel my body lighten and the tiredness go away

Callies POV

"You don't have to fight anymore, you fought as long as you could and I'm so proud of you" I tell Arizona, her eyes already closed and her body goes limp

Her chest stopped moving, she stopped breathing,

I bowed my head and the tears just kept falling and they wouldn't stop,

Shes gone, my wife is gone and she'll never be back,

Till next time❤️

Y'all- I cried so bad while writing this😭

How y'all feeling??

Y'all want a funeral or a few years later?