Stuck In Star Trek {Spock Romance {18+}

Author's Note:

So this is my first Spock fanfic, so please take note I do have terrible memory issues, and not good with names, and it's been years since I've seen the movies from 2009 and onward, so I can't remember everything in how the movies went, also my Star Trek movies were destroyed thanks to years ago a neighbor made me get a mice infestation that destroyed my big movie and anime collection, even my really really old movies, and Inuyasha old as hell DVD sets I had since I was a young teenager, even my Spice And Wolf first season.
I had a ton of movies and anime, the only anime that survived was Moonphase, and also my Shojo Beat Magazine from March 2009, yep Shojo Beat did a magazine years ago and I had several copies back then but thanks to my filthy neighbors they all got annilated.

So yes cause I can't remember much I'm doing research, which I always do.
My favorite series of Star Trek is Next Generation.
The Picard series that's right now I don't watch, I prefer the old school stuff, and the movies from 2009, and the two made afterwards, cause the young Spock was my favorite.
Also Spock from the Original Series I adored too, and as a kid had a crush on.
So my stem of my Spock crush runs deep.
I just ain't good at writing his character so well, it's hard to mimic truly it is.

Now if any misspellings happen or I get alien names wrong please do not bash me, I do have dyslexia that's getting worse by one eye going blind, possibly, which I'm fearing it is, so both eyes combat each other, making my dyslexia worse, and to be honest I'm bad at names too.
Also if you notice instead of Spock I write Spick it's because my keyboard is messing up and on its own Auto Correct Madness, and in no way am I doing a racial slur, I am against racism, I see all humans as one race the human race, and we are Equals, unless you show me you're not my equal in how you act or treat others like crap or bully others, then you're not my equal.
Because I don't stand for bullying.
So as well in my stories respect my wishes, in how I tell the story how I see fit, as well as no racial slurs in the comments, or posting anything like porno links or anything like that, or sexual things towards other people, and right now I'm having a terrible time uploading chapters cause my internet no joke is 00.2g and also shrink's to 001g which barely powers anything online, meaning things buffer for hours on end, even trying to click a chapter and it buffers for more than an hour, even publishing chapters do it, even restarting my device does diddly squat, my Netflix even buffers alot, I sometimes have to wait for days to publish anything too cause this continues onward, I refresh crap like crazy to make it work to publish any chapters, even restarting my device I wrote on.
Nothing works until the internet cooperates with me, our internet company gave us crappy internet on purpose and is downgrading it more as time passes even downgrading it more in strength as our contract is up, saying BS that too much stuff is on the router when I use it the most and nobody else does, or I watch Netflix with my mother. I use it the most to write stories or play mobile games that don't take hardly any gigs of internet to do, like simple matching games to relax me.
Even updating video games, which I'm a gamer when I feel like playing games, and games take days upon days to update or our consoles.
If I say I can't update in a post on my profile cause the internet is doing it's BS then please understand it will take forever to even update, and also I have appointments too with doctors constantly.
Mostly I write offline several chapters when the internet is being a Big B, and when I can I put up either one chapter as a teaser, or two to try to make up for my internet being a Big Bottom Line B.

My Health Issues and Disabilities stem from a family member doing drugs that helped conceive me, the male part, in which can happen, so I find new stuff wrong with me alot, so if I say I'm not feeling well from my health I mean I pretty much am.
I'm also grieving from my grandma having breast cancer too, which I must get tested for, so does my Mom we've never been tested.
We know my grandma won't survive a second bout of cancer, and how I grieve is not by crying, but inwardly, and writing also.
If you are religious I don't mind you praying for my family, though I'm Athiest.
I don't mind it as long as it's positive praying.
You may pray for my grandma and my family, since my Mom is also very ill and her health is degrading too.

I appreciate everyone being so patient with me, and I'm telling much truth to my internet being this way, we'll soon shut it off in April, so if I'm not online puting up stories for a long time in April, please know that we are working to find an internet company that comes out to the boonies where I live, and trying to get it hooked up.
Thank you very much for supporting me for all these years.
I love you all, and love you support me.
Hell someone I care about does too.
I bid you adew.

Sincerely,
FanficDemon1701