Amelia's POV
ok so yeah I'm a horrible mother when I comes to my girls and a horrible girlfriend to mia but I needed an escape I was tired of repeating the same day over and over I needed a change which I have failed to explain to the woman the love so much in this whole fucking world.
after I left the note I went by to Boston then I left to nyc which was a horrible idea because I hate seeing my sisters so then I resorted to my last stop la which I knew more people there yeah but that also leads to me having to explain why I'm not in Seattle with my kids and wife.
I have been gone maybe a month of more I don't know to be honest but I do know I miss my family and everyone else back in Seattle which is why I have decided maybe it's time for me to go back but then that leads to more problems with mia which I'm not ready to face.
I knocked on Addison's door expecting her to open instead I was opened to my brunette to which I thought I left back in Seattle "hey who was at" Addison stopped talking after she saw it was me who was at the door "um come in" she said but the brunette moved away she then proceeded to avoid me walking upstairs
"Amelia what the hell" Addison said "what" I said like I didn't do anything "you left your girl and kids and friends" she said "it was only for like a month chill out" I said "no it wasn't it was like 6 months" she said then I felt my heart drop it broke into little pieces hearing that. "you're lying" I said "no everyone was looking for you and Mia" she said then I got confused "why Mia" I asked "after you went missing she went searching for you every day for about a month until she gave up" she told me
"what do you mean she gave up" I asked her "after a while she started being herself again" she said "how are my girls" I asked "they are now walking and very talkative" she said oh my fucking god I'm a horrible mom I missed my kids own steps and now they can talk "um where are they" I asked her "upstairs where Mia disappeared to" she told me then I walked upstairs down the hall into their room I'm assuming they are taking their afternoon nap but also Mia probably doesn't want like a single thing to do with me.
"hey can we talk" I said she was on her phone I'm assuming working "I don't wanna talk with you right now" she said "please" I said she looked up at me she grabbed the monitor and we walked out the room together into another "talk" she said sitting down in the chair "I'm sorry I left you I didn't even realize how long it was till addie told me" I said "you hurt me...again" she said her voice was breaking "Mia I needed time I was at a breaking point" I said she already had tears in her eyes
"melia I needed you but you left me" she said "I know and I'm sorry but I also know I can say sorry so many times but it won't erase what I did to you" I said now crying "you were my everything you promised" she said "I don't want to fight you over the girls I want to go back home" I said she was looking at me "yeah I'm leaving tomorrow" she told me "how long have you been in la" I asked "since you left I wanted to find you" she said "how are the girls" I asked "they miss you but you also have missed a lot with them" she said "and everyone back at home" I asked her "they know I will be back tomorrow but you they miss you" she said
she was crying I wanted to do something but I felt like it wasn't my job anymore but I also couldn't watch her cry so I pulled her into a hug she immediately hugged me back which I thought you wouldn't do but she did this just made me cry more because I messed up like bad like I don't think I can come back from this
she looked up at me wiping her tears then she went to wipe mine "I want to hate you but I can't because I love you more" she told me she gave me a forehead kiss then she got up to leave the room. after she left I broke down again because I hurt everyone I left behind.
Mia's POV
the one person I thought who wouldn't come back came back I have missed her but she also broke me and my trust for her is there but it's not I want to be with her but how will I know she won't leave again or decide she wants to move again out of nowhere.
It was getting close to midnight and I had to put the girls down otherwise they wouldn't sleep on the way back to Seattle "ok can we listen to mama and sleep" I said looking down at them in their cribs the one time they don't talk "mommy can help us" I said then I called Amelia in to see if she can help me.
"the girls think it's play time" I said to Amelia
"mommy thinks we should sleep" she said I swear they all share the same eye color then we heard one of them click their tongue me and Amelia both looked at each other "lex what do you think" I asked her hoping for some words
she made these cute little sounds "or whatever language lex speaks" Amelia said I noticed that riles fell asleep on her own now it was time for lex which is the hardest "ok how about we tell a story" I said turning my direction to Amelia "about me and mama" she finished I didn't really know where we were going with this story but it's worth a shot we slowly told the story which lead to lex falling asleep but we still somehow were telling the story to each other.
I honestly don't know what to do about me and Amelia I think we need time to talk more or for it to just be us and we need time with the girls maybe we need therapy but she might object to that but who knows only the future knows.
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I just wonder if they'll will make it?
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