It's been two months since she started teaching in our school and only two months left. I'll go to college and face the reality. I don't think I can call my day better without nagging her. Her little attention she has given to me was now completely gone. It's all my fault, no one I could blame but myself.
I'm currently in a coffee shop with these two, Cath and Margaret. I already told Catherine what happened, she was shock of course.
"I knew it, Ariella! From all the people, bakit si Ms. Marcos?" She almost choked. Margaret laugh, "Alam mo, ang kabaklaan walang pinipiling edad." Wow, these bitches is really helping.
Ms. Marcos sometimes glancing at me at school or never at all. She doesn't call me on recitation, but my weekly grades is quite good on her subject.
"You've never been in a girl to girl relationship, Ariella. You may be attractive to women, but I'm hoping you not to use Ms. Marcos to find what's missing about you." Cath seriously uttered. What she said once bother my mind. What if this is just infatuation? What if I'm just too overwhelmed? Too many what ifs in my mind but I didn't even give time to answer one of them. You will probably be afraid to your own answer when your actions and emotion are speaking louder than your words. I've fallen harder.
"I agree with Catherine." Margaret sustained, "If you really love her, you will make a way to make her love you. But I suggest you to keep your adoration lowkey since she's still our teacher. Kapag naka graduate na tayo, why not diba? If you're really serious lang naman about her. Pero kung hindi, stop it already. Don't waste Ms. Marcos time. We didn't even know kung may asawa, boyfriend siya o wala." She said like there's a big chance to make it happen. Finally, these two said something matters.
Cath and Margaret is right. I have to find it myself without involving her. She's too precious to be hurt by scumbag like me. Wait, she don't have a feelings for me tho. I'm dreaming too much.
After my serious session with them, I asked them to come with me to do my grocery. I love doing it and buy whatever I want without looking to my list. Cath couldn't come since her mother called her for emergency.
"I'll come, I'm not busy at all." Margaret wiggle her eyebrows. Catherine bid goodbye, and we decided to parted ways.
From the very first time, my parents allowed me to drive. But before that, too many reminders I've received from them.
"What do you want to buy, Maggie?" Yes, I have my own nickname for her, Marga sounds mataray it doesn't suits her personality since she's kind and jolly. Maggie would be nice.
" Don't mind me, I have my own money. I come with you because I don't want to stay at home. Visitors come in and go. That kind of situation that every politicians daughter need to endure." She cackled. By the way, Margaret is a daughter of Makati Mayor and I didn't know that until she told me herself.
" Maybe a gift? For coming with me." She shook her head and look at me, "Nah, it's fine. Don't mind me." She murmured.
I parked my car and we proceed inside the supermarket. Once I step in inside the store, my hand can't stop shaking. My anxiety again. Margaret noticed it and stop for awhile, "You good?" She asked and look at me. I just nodded in response. " Akin na. Let me hold your hand." She smiled and I let out a shaky breath. That calms me down a lil bit.
As we walk to beverages area, Margaret telling a funny stories that made us both laugh.
"My grade two teacher asked him what's 2+2 and he answered 'butiki' because he kept on looking at the lizard in the ceiling." She chortled while holding her tummy. This girl. Her laugh is contagious so I laugh as well.
