Loving You With My Hands Tied ✔️

Kabanata 2: Hold My Hand

Kabanata 2: Hold My Hand

"Hoy, anyare sa'yo?"

"H-Ha?"

'Di ako makagalaw, 'di ako mapakali, may problema yata ako sa utak pero alam ko na ang problema ay nasa dibdib ko.

"Wala namang nangyare sa'kin?"

"Geneva, what is wrong?"

"Nothing, Cerine! Wala nga 'kong problema, and for God's sake, it's dinner... just shh!" bulong ko sa kanya with so much passion from the top of my chest.

Kanina pa titig nang titig sa'kin si Cerine, 'di niya ba gets that it's family dinner and hindi dapat kami nagtsitsismisan dito! The last thing I want to do is for our father to scold me for talking while eating, wala naman talaga kaming rule kapag family dinner but respect is needed, respect is a must when eating!

It's been an hour since dad returned back home for a visit, alam na'ming may trabaho pa rin siya pero it's nice to think na bibisita siya at dito rin siya matutulog for tonight only this week.

"But you... don't shut your mouth when it's dinner--"

"Cerine!" natigil ako nang narealize ko na nataas ko yung boses ko, at ngayon nasa akin ang buong atensyon ng mga kapatid ko at parents na'min.

Karine was just confused, Cerine looks livelier, and our parents are smiling at me. What is going on? Nakakainis kasi 'tong si Cerine eh! Busy akong kumakain bigla bigla siyang nanggugulo!

"Sorry..." I apologized immediately, baka ano pang saibihn ni Karine mamaya sa'kin, sasawayin nanaman niya 'ko as always.

"I was worried that something must have happened to our daughter, you weren't talking like you usually do, Aster." mom spoke with the usual angelic smile of hers, she's always been soft and gentle towards us because it's how she gives us love and affection to all of her children.

"Ha... yeah..."

"Our daughter has matured, perhaps, which is a great thing!" tawa ni dad pagkatapos niyang nguyain yong pagkain niya.

Is it that big of a deal that I wasn't talking? Alam kong madaldal ako pero may preno naman yung bibig ko minsan, or... do I talk that much during family dinners? Kaya ba 'ko sinasaway ni Karine dahil doon?

Kahit na kumakain ako masyado pa ring nakapokus yung buong isip ko sa lalaking nakabangga ko kanina, he's odd, he's so odd! What is up with him? Next thing I know hinila siya nung ibang mga kasambahay at pati na rin yung hardinero na'min palayo sa'kin.

Pero kahit na palayo nang palayo ang distansiya na'min sa isa't-isa, 'di pa rin nawala yung mga mata na'min sa isa't-isa, he was so fucking beautiful, and that's all I could think about.

All I could think about was that boy, who was he?

Tsaka paano siya nakapasok dito sa mansion na'min? Wala naman din akong narinig na ingay galing sa pulis which means na 'di nila tinawagan yung mga pulis o kahit sino man mula sa awtoridad, so what is happening?

Who was he? Seriously! He's driving me crazy! I have to stop thinking about him, he's just a boy... a very beautiful fucking boy!

Stop this!

Tama na, ayoko nang isipin 'to, I can't believe I'm actually blushing because of some boy who was covered in dirt.

"Sisters, Mom, Dad." I spoke, taking a deep breath with their eyes all on me.