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Kabanata 13: This Is Hope

Kabanata 13: This Is Hope

"It looks good."

"Nah."

Gulat yung mga kasambahay at pati na rin yung designer sa likod ko, ilang beses na 'kong nagpapalit ng gown na maisusuot para sa opening night ng hotel this week.

"Hindi niyo po ba gusto?"

"I'm really sorry, it just doesn't feel like it's me, sorry."

This opening night is important, it's a huge party and we've already invited many prominent and wealthy people in the Philippines, kahit na din yung mga iba na galing sa ibang bansa na bumisita dito sa Pilipinas just for this.

I need to make sure that everything is perfect, everything is going well and even Silas helped me with the other things.

I'm thankful for him and my sisters who also helped me, we employed the other people as quickly as we could.

Everything is good, the only thing missing right now is my gown for the party.

For the opening night, kailangan ko ring maghanda ng speech ko, a welcoming one, the guests are going to be staying at the night of our opening for them to enjoy the whole experience of the newly opened hotel.

I need a gown to make an impression, that I am Aster Geneva D. Dixon, that I am the woman, the woman just like my older sisters.

I want to make sure that I've proven to them that I can do something too, that I am worth it.

Sinubukan kong hanapin talaga yun, but no... I still found nothing, I found nothing that could actually make me feel that this is me, ang hirap talaga.

'Di naman din kasi ako mahilig na maghanap o bumili ng mga gown o dress, mas gusto ko pang magsuot nang pantalon.

I sighed. Maybe I'll look for one online, busy pa 'ko mamaya, I need to visit the hotel and check everything, I have to make sure that we're prepared and we're doing great.

I'm going to be strict again, I have to, I really have to.

"Okay ka lang ba?" tanong ni Dominic sa tabi ko sa loob ng kotse, he's driving for me now.

Assistant ko na rin naman na siya.

Tinanggap niya yung bago niyang trabaho bilang assistant ko, he takes care of everything and not just my business, but also just everything in my life.

Minsan nga pinapakain niya 'ko nang gulay kasi raw kailangan ko raw maging healthy, kailangan din na lagi akong may energy, para ko naman siyang magulang.

Nabibwisit ako talaga, 'di ko siya gustong maging magulang, gusto ko siyang maging asawa like hello?

"Here." he pointed at the food next to my seat, may inumin din na kasama.

"Ano 'to?"

Lunch box? It's an orange lunch box, ooh!

"I asked yaya Maria if she could cook something healthy for you..."

"Ugh, don't... tell me..."

I was right. It was salad, fucking salad.

Oh shit.

Ayoko na, pagod na 'ko kakasalad! Siya kaya palamunin ko ni'to! Puro na lang ako damo, it's not like I'm complaining, ang saya ko na kumakain ako ng gulay, pero gulay na lang talaga?