That One Night Stand

CHAPTER 3

"Gising na!!!!" Kasabay ng sigaw na iyon ay ang naging pagbagsak din ng pwetan ko sa sahig. Nauntog pa ang ulo ko sa dulo ng kama. I groan in pain and hold my head while caressing it. Mariing nakapikit ang mata ko at tikom ang bibig habang hinihimas padin ang ulo ko. Nagkabukol ata dahil may nahahawakan akong sing laki ng marble.

"Ang sakit...... Letse kayo..." madiin kong sabi at tumayo ng mag-isa dahil walang nag-abalang tulungan ako na parang wala silang ginawa.

"Letse ka daw Hellie...." Pananakot ni Chantalle, at tinuturo pa ito, umirap lang sa hangi si Zele at walang pakialam. Naglakad ito palabas ng kwarto may kukinin ata.

"Pag itong bukol ko lumaki bubukulan ko kayo ng marami bwesit kayo" padabog akong nagmartsa papasok sa loob ng banyo para maghilamos. Paglabas ko ay ang pagpasok din ni Zele may dala nang ice pack.

"Bakit mo kasi hinila ng malakas Hellie!?" Pagsesermon niya, at nilagay sa, may bukol ko ang ice pack. Imbes na matakot ay mas lalo pa itong tumawa at nang-aasar pa.

"Buti ako behave lang"

"Pinalaki talaga kita ng mabuti doggy" pang-aasar ni Zele may Chantalle, pinagkunutan lang naman siya ng noo ni Chantalle at benelatan.

"Doggy my ass! Maganda ako beh at loyal ako kay mama sorry" kinindatan pa ni Chantalle si Zele at nginitian.

"Bakit sabi ko bang anak kita? Eww yocc Tally walang aagaw sayo sa mama mo, kadiri to!" Nandidiring pang-aasar ni Zele at animo pinagpagan pa ang katawan.

"Sabi ko bang gusto kitang maging mama? Kapal mo!"

"Kapal mo din!"

"Tumahimik nga kayo! Ang iingay niyo Jusko!" I stood between them to stop them from doing what they are doing. Pinanlakihan ko na nang mata ng hindi padin tumigil.

"What are you all doing here?—"

"And what happened to your eyes? Bakit namumugto? You cried?" Hellie cut me off, guard. I look around to avoid them, trying to find a word to use.

"I watched a trajic movie, that's it" I managed my voice not to stutter and keep it whole. They slowly nod which makes me feel relieved.

"Gagala tayo di'ba? Sa labas na tayo kumain ng tanghalian!" Hyper na aya ni Chantalle.

"Ay, tama tama!" senigundahan pa ni Hellie.

"Libre niyo sige"

"Kuripot mo Zele!"

"No.1 kuripot Zele!" Kanya-kanya silang reklamo dahil sa sinabi ni Zele. Saming apat si Zele ang pinaka-kuripot, kala mo araw-araw may babayaran na order sa shopee.

"Pambayad ko yun eh!"

"Ede wag kang kumain!"

"Ede wag din kayo mag-aya!"

"Libre daw ni Heavly kaya tara" napaawang ang bibig ko dahil sa sinabi ni Chantalle. Hindi na ako nagkaroon ng pagkakataon na umangal dahil lumabas na sila isa-isa sa kwarto ko at iniwan ako.

"Letseng mga babae....." I murmured in the air. I make myself fresh and wear a dress that compliments my body. I let my straight hair loose in the air and put on light make-up. Pagkatapos ay isinukbit ko na ang bag ko tsaka lumabas ng kwarto.

"Tara"

Nadatnan ko silang prenteng naka-upo sa harap ng TV habang nanonood ng power puff girls. Isip bata tsk!

"Kung kailan ang sarap na nang panonood ko tsaka pa aalis!" Pangmamaktol ni Hellie habang pinapadyak ang paa. I raise my brow at her.

"Ede wag kang sumama!"

"Makapaghihintay naman ang power puff girls ang tiyan ko 'di na!" Nauna pa itong naglakad sa amin. I shook my head and chuckled.

We used the family service to take us to the mall, iniwan lang din kami ni kuya Roel at babalikan nalang daw kami pag tatawag na ako. Walang humpay ang asaran nilang tatlo, pero kahit kunti ay hindi ko nakitaan ng ang sarili kong makipag-bwrdagulan sa kanila ngayon. I don't have any energy to laugh with them, maybe because I was crying all night and maybe because I am guilty.......

We directly headed to one of my favorite restaurants, I am just at their back silently following them. Siguro dahil sa asaran nila hindi nila napansin ang pananahimik, which I am thankful for, mas mabuti ng ganoon kesa naman ma-hot seat ako.

Tahimik lang akong kumakain hanggang sa matapos ako at nang ma-served ang dessert. Napapansin ko din ang minsang pagsulyap ni Chantalle sa akin, pero nang mahuli ko ang tingin niya ay babalik siya sa pakikipag-asaran sa dalawa. I know Chantalle was wondering why I am silent the whole time because I'm not like this, among us, I am the loudest one, nangunguna sa pakikipag-batdagulan at alaskahan.

"Arcade tayo!" As soon as we finally out of the restaurant yan agad ang pang-aaya ni Hellie. Sumang-ayon ang dalawa at ako nalang ang hindi pa sumasagot.

"Girl section lang ako. Antayin ko nalang kayo doon sa van pag wala pa kayo" I don't let them say any words at lumakad lang paalis. It's not me being rufe, and it's not my pride or ego, it's because I am guilty of what I did.

Dinala ako ng mga paa ko sa likuran ng mall. Napaupo ako sa damuhan at umiyak. I used my hands to cover my eyes. I don't care if anyone will see me. I am guilty and it's killing me. I betrayed my friends and.....  Parents... They trusted me but I take them to shame. Nakakahiya akong kaibigan......

"Shhhh... Heavly nandito lang kami" An arms wrap around me, at isinubsub ako sa dibdib niya.  Here they are...... The girls I don't deserve to have.......

"I'm sorry....... I'm sorry....."

"Whatever it is, it's okay love... We understand you" I was still in Chantalle's arms while the two girls are caressing my head and back.

"I don't deserve you, girls..."

"No... Don't say that. You deserve us okay and we deserve you" ihinawalay niya ako sa dibdib niya at pinunasan ang mukha ko na puno ng luha. She lifted my head directly to her to see my face. How many times she uses her hands to wipe my tears but it still falling and falling like rain? Randam ko na din pamamanhid ng mata ko kakaiyak, at ang pamamaos ko dahil sa hagulhul sa buong magdamag. I don't want to cry anymore but it's uncontrollable.

"I lied to you all of y-you..... A-and..... It's unacceptable. I f-fucking lied to all of you" I said between my sobs. They are not crying but they were invisible tears in their eyes.

"In friendship, it doesn't mean we have to know every secret and privacy...... But lying is an exemption" gumaralgal narin ang boses niya.

"Pero maiintindihan naman namin kung bakit ka nagsinungaling..... May kanya-kanya tayong rason" hinaplos niya ang mukha ko at maliit na ngumiti. The girls caged me into their arms. In their arms, I felt comfort, and I am at peace.

"T-that night... I-l slept with s-someone... And something happened between u-us...." I start telling them. They never talked and just listened, but I know how much they wanted to fire me a lot of questions.....

"I-l'm sorry..... I was drunk... And I was stupid to surrender everything... My dignity... And... My b-body.." my tears weren't felt out of stock... It's still falling.

"And you know what? H-he left me... The moment when sunrise came..."

"You don't have to say sorry Heav... It's not your fault... Nadala kalang sa init ng katawan niyo, don't blame yourself"

"Guilt was killing me for leaving the three of you that night"

"No. It's fine. Just please don't blame yourself"

I lost all of my energy, but tears weren't enough.

To be continued.......