Olivia woke me up in the early morning. I took Luca and we returned back to my school. I went back to bed for a while and even Luca joined me. When i woke up again i saw he was still there and still asleep. I reached up to him and placed my hand on his middle head. Oh. I thought feeling how weak he was now. He had started deteriorating quickly. I dont think he will last the week. He will be lucky to last the next few days. I could feel the pain he was in now. He was suffering.
Getting out of bed i ran to professor Florals room and started rapidly knocking on the door that quickly turned into bashing because she didn't answer fast enough. Tears started to fall from my eyes because Luca was in pain and i was going to loose him. I stopped knocking when Professor Floral opened the door in a nightgrown. It was still early in the morning and she looked like she just got out of bed
"Gemini what's wrong?" She asked concerned now
"It's Luca." I sobbed now "he's dying" i told her. She gasped now
"Come show me." She said leaving the room and following me back to my room. Going inside she approached Luca and put her hand on his back. He didn't even move but her expression got sad very quickly. I didn't even want to hear what she had to say her face told it all. There was nothing she could do to help me. "I'm sorry Gem. It seems like the trauma has caught up with him. You knew when you took him in the amount of damage he had taken and you knew it didn't have a lot of life left in him." She told me with a sympathetic tone as i sobbed
"I know. I just came so quickly." I whispered sitting beside him on the bed "can you ease his pain?" I asked her now looking at her hopeful.
"Truthfully Gemini. I believe we should euthanise him. Just taking away the pain will prolong the inevitable. At least that way it can be quick." She told me i held Luca in my arms now as he made a little whine. I knew it was for the best but I didn't know if i could do it. I wasn't ready. I didn't want to let him go yet. "Ill give you some time top decide and I'll send word to Olivia. See if the headmaster will let her come be here for it. I know you will probably want her there." She told me. I gave a slight nod as she left the room leaving me to cry as i held Luca. My poor baby. I'm sorry I couldn't give you more time. I thought as the tears streamed from my eyes
Professor floral came back an hour later dressed and with a basket of supplies. She placed it on the desk and looked at me still laying in bed cuddling Luca.
"Olivia is on her way here now. Was there anyone else? Blake or Ian? Or your brother?" She asked me.
"Yeah. Tell them. They might want to say goodbye." I whispered still upset about the situation. I really wasn't ready to say goodbye to him.
"Okay I will go inform them." She spoke and left the room again. I just sighed talking to Luca showing him all the best memories from the year he had been with me and it made him relax despite the pain he was in.
Olivia showed up first with Kin. Kin jumped onto the bed and laid down with Luca grooming his head for comfort. Olivia sat behind me and cuddles me making me start crying all over again. I couldn't help it. Luca had been with me though most of my changes and I wasn't ready to look him yet. But I had no choice he was unwell and deteriorating. Prolonging his life now would just make him suffer more.
"Shh. It's okay love." Olivia whispered holding me tight. She tried to comfort me but she was also upset as well. "What matters now is being here with him." She told me
"I'm not ready to let him go." I sobbed making Luca whine as he snuggled closer to me.
"I know love. But its his time and there is nothing we can do to change that. All we can do is keep him company until he gone." She whispered to me. I just nodded struggling to breath because of how much i was crying.
Another hour passed by and Philip showed up with Kyle. They looked at me but didn't say anything. They understood the situation and just sat on the edge of the bed in silence. Then Ian showed up with Blake. Ian looked more upset then Blake did. But when i saw Cassy i got angry. I didn't want her here. I hatted her and I didn't want her
"Leave" Olivia spoke in a stern tone looking at Cassy.
"You can't tell me what to do." Cassy spoke. Olivia got up now and she was angry.
"Get the fuck out before. I drag you out!" Olivia yelled at Cassy.
"Whoa where is this aggression coming from." Ian spoke alarmed now. They were all alarmed by Olivias aggression she normally a calm person even when angry she normally remains calm and doesn't raise her voice. So this was out of character for her to be yelling.
"Don't make me ask again!" Olivia snapped at Cassy now
"It's not your choice. I can be here if i like." Cassy said being smug now. I saw Blake went to say something but Olivia reacted first grabbing Cassy by her jacket and throwing her out of my room. I had seen Cassy hit the ground and a small cry of pain before Olivia closed the door. Olivia turned to Blake now
"If she comes back in here again she will need a hospital." Olivia threatened Blake before coming back to me. She placed a kiss on my head and cuddled me to comfort me. I didn't say anything and i was grateful for Olivia kicking her out. She definitely handled it better then i would have.
Professor Floral had retuned looking at everyone in the room. No one had said anything but everyone was a little upset about the situation. Professor Floral approached Luca with a needle now before i could ask any questions she started speaking
"It's for the pain. It will ease the pain." She told me and i nodded now watching as she injected Luca with the pain relief. His body relaxed now and the trembling stopped. "When you are ready we will start the process. But dont leave it too long." She told me i nodded slightly and started sobbing all over again because now it had to decide when to kill him. I didn't want to make that choice. I didn't want him to go. Luca whined again as i held him close to me never wanting to let him go. Please dont take him from me. Please. I begged anyone who would listen to my call.
I couldn't even think or hear anything anymore. I was just crying holding Luca in my arms. I could feel Olivia stroking my hair and whispering to me but I couldn't hear her. My surroundings where downing out and I couldn't breath because i was crying so much. I felt Lucas heart beat being to slow down now and when i opened my eyes i had seen professor floral had given Luca another needle. No. No I wasn't ready! Luca went limp in my arms as his heart stopped beating and I screamed holding him. No! Luca! I love you please come back. Please don't leave me. Please.
"It's just a dog." I lost it when Cassy spoke. How dare she say that! HOW FUCKING DARE SHE COME IN HERE!
I didn't have full control over my actions. I felt like i was just observing my body as i grabbing Cassy by the throat and slammed her against the wall that hard i heard something break. She had gone limp immediately after. I dont know if i killed her or not. I didn't care. Olivia had pulled me off Cassy and Blake had run to Cassy to help her. Olivia forced me to look at her blocking my vision so i could only see her. She looked worried and frightened
"Love please. Calm down." She pleased with me. The regret hit me now and i started crying again. As much as i hated Cassy i am not a killer i dont kill people. Olivia pulled me into her and hugged me tight
"She alive just unconscious." I heard professor Floral say sounding realised. Thank god. It thought sobbing into Olivia's chest.
"Fuck what the hell happened. I have never seen Gemini react so aggressively before." Ian spoke worried.
"I swear it looked like she was going to kill her." Kyle whispered now.
"I think we should leave. Let her calm down. She did just loose her companion and will be highly emotional for some time." Philip spoke ushering everyone out of the room
They took Luca with them leaving me alone with Olivia now. I was still sobbing and holding onto her desperately. I didn't know what to do. I felt bad for hurting Cassy like that. I'm not a monster. I don't kill people. I avoid fighting people if i can. It's not me. I'm not that type of person. I don't want to be that type of person.
"Please forgive me love." I heard Olivia say. I looked up at her to question her but when i did everything went black. She put me to sleep. I don't blame her i was highly volatile and dangerous. I would have done the same thing too.
I had slipped into the vail when Olivia put me to sleep. I just sat on the beach crying. I didn't know what to do. I lost Luca and i felt miserable. I knew i was loosing him but I didn't realise it would happen so soon. And then to act out the way i did. I was hoping to kill Cassy. Am i really turning into a monster?
"Hey love." I looked up at Olivia as she approached me in the veil now. She looked upset. "Are you angry with me?" She asked now. I shook my head no.
"It was the best choice. I couldn't control my actions. For a second there i was certain i would kill Cassy." I told her resting my head against my knees. She sat down beside me and put her arms around me.
"Then let it all out. In here where it is safe. Scream cry. So what you need to do my love." She told me before kissing my temple. I leaned into Olivia and held onto her.
"I just need you right now. And a while to calm down." I whispered. Olivia laid down in the sand with me and held me close to her body. I felt her giving my head light scratches as tears fell from my eyes.
I dont know how much time we were in the veil for. But it helped. When we came out i was feeling a little better. I was still upset i lose Luca but i had cried for hours. Now i had to pull myself back together. School resumes tomorrow and i need to bring my professional self back to working order. I couldn't allow this to ruined everything. I dont want to push Lucas death to the side but i still had a job to do.
Yes I cried writing this. But it had to be done.
~love Amos
