Philip and I stayed in the lunch cart right up until we got back to my home town. After that we disembarked from the train with our belongings. Talia was there but she was here to pick up black and cassy since she rejoined Blake's pack to be with her mate. One who she believed to be dead for a very long time. I tried to speak with Talia but cassy reached her first and they greeted each other like they were best friends. They hugged each other tight and Talia said she missed cassy. I watched as they got in the car and I didn't even get a side glance as they drove away. My heart felt like it was crush. Talia was my best friend! We have been friends our whole lives! I turned to ask Ian what that was about but he was already gone. Actually everyone had cleared out already. Philip I could still see but he was g by on the phone. Kyle and Ryker were gone. Rachel was with Ian. And- I felt like my world was crumbling apart. It has just hit me now exactly how little I mean to everyone when I don't have my powers. No one looks in my direction anymore. My power use to draw attention to me. And now. Now the people who should be my friends can't even say goodbye. Or even acknowledged me. I felt the tears fill my eyes threatening to spill over. Normally I would wipe them away and put on a brave face until I was alone. But I am alone. I thought as the tears slipped from my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. I looked up in philips direction because I desperately wanted a hug and to have someone tell me it was going to be alright. But when I saw his smiling face and the blush on his cheeks it upset me more. Philip laughed in a way that told me whoever he was on the phone to said something embarrassing but also funny. I was familiar with it by now because when o got upset he would tell me funny embarrassing stories about his childhood and he always laughed the same way. It was really the only time he actually laughed. The rest of the time it was normal a chuckle or a small singular laugh. Maybe he did have someone to spend the holiday with. I thought as I dropped my head the tears continued to fall and I didn't care if anyone saw. My entire life. The one I desperately wanted. The one where I could be seen as an equal in the supernatural world was gone. Over night i lost it all. I have nothing now. I don't even know how I'm meant to get home either. Kyle was picked up by mum and I knew she wouldn't have waited because it was normal for me to just automatically go and catch up with Talia. But it was rather clear just now. Talia doesn't see me as her number one friend anymore. By the way she looked at cassy she adores her and respects her. Pain cause my chest to tighten and I feel like my body was being strangled. Was this Lilith's doing? Or was this like an anxiety attack? I couldn't tell I just knew it became harder to breath and my tears clouded my vision. Just trying to breath in was painful and felt impossible. My entire rip cage felt like it was going to be crushed under the pressure. I was hyperventilating and becoming dizzy. My rapid and shallow breathing wasn't letting enough oxygen into my body. A hand landed on my head in a General way tucking my hair back to make my scares visible
"Stop. Take a steady breath." Philip spoke in a calm steady tone as he pulled me closer to his warm body hugging me. I reached up with shaking hands to hold onto his shirt as the tears continued to fall. "Just focus on your breathing gem. Slow steady breaths clear your mind from all the negativity and just focus on now." He told me. Focus? On now? The people I trust have left me. Philips Hand stroked the back of my head and my mind began to clear from all the negative things. How does he do that? How can he so easily stop me from having a panic attack? I looked up at Philip now and he gave me a warm smile I was having a full blow panic attack me he calmed me in seconds something Ryker couldn't do and I loved Ryker. My wolf saw him as serenity and would always calm down after a moment. Buts Philip one touch to my head followed by a couple words and it's like nothing happened.
"Do you have some kind of emotional manipulation over me?" I whispered becoming skeptical of him now.
"No." He told me "I can't manipulate anyone's emotions but thought physical contact I can temporarily change their emotions. It works best when someone's having a panic attack like you just were."
"How does it work?" I asked him curious now
"I can put a stop to overwhelming emotions that's tend to eat people alive by nullifying them with my own. I use my strongest emotion depending on the situation and counteract the overwhelming one voiding both myself and the other person of emotions for the duration of the contact. This allows the person enough time to get their thoughts in order before they hurt themselves." He explained. I nodded slightly looking down now.
"Who were you on the phone to?" I asked him
"My little sister." He told me
"I thought you were and only child and an orphan." I spoke.
"Well I am yes. But I did spend my time moving from frosted home to foster home frowning up. After I turned 13 I got my own phone and kept in contact with most of my foster siblings. I called her up to let her know I was in the area since she moved here last year." He explained to me sounding slightly amused. "I opened her up to this world and even tho she is human she embraces the existence kind of like you" he said removing his hand from my head
"How?" I asked him
"she studies every type of species out there as different types of magic. She wants to fit into this world but is human and she can't without judgment or danger. And I'm not there to watch her." He told me smiling now.
"Did you want to invite her over? I'm sure she would love to see the creature room." I suggested. He seemed excited by that. Why did I offer? Was I trying to make him happy?
"You wouldn't mind? I did ask her to come and pick us up since everyone else forgot we existed."
"It's not a problem. The creatures are all very tame. I just have to be careful who I approached because they don't recognise me and just see me as an imposter right now." I explained. he nodded slightly as he looked at me
"Did you want a hug?" He asked. I looked at him for a second before my head dropped and I nodded. Philip wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. A few stray tears fell as his arms embrace my small body. The strong grip reminding me how fragile my body is now. How easily he could crush me even tho he didn't have as much of a physical strength as Ian or blake. Even Kyle was more physically stronger then Philip. Even tho Philip could hurt me just by hugging me I knew he wouldn't. I knew he would never hold me any tighter then he needed to. But it was still a reminder of how weak I actually am.
"Thanks Philip." I whispered now.
