When I saw those texts, my first instinct was to go back, go back and do this all over again.
This wasn't new, me and Ashton fought a lot, like a lot more than I hope to admit.
We would fight and he would call me whore or slut or something, I would leave crying and he would drink away his feelings just for him to call me all night and when he woke up I would be in bed with him.
But not anymore, I'm done.
I'm done with Ashton and I'm done with his bullshit.
I've done this shit for 12 years . I've known him for too long. I just need to run away and forget.
We'll never forget, I guess, how could I forget him.
But I try my hardest not to remember and find someone new, someone who loves me and wants to be with me.
Ashton doesn't love me and I don't know if he ever did, but I loved him so much more than I could write in words for you today.
Even after all these years I still miss him more than anything.
i love this book so fucking much guys
YOU ARE READING
insufferable - AFI
Fanfiction"how can a love as true as hers be returned only half as strong as she gave" - @lukeisntreal on twitter Love is pain, or at least that's what they always say. But that would be an understatement Because loving Ashton Irwin is insufferable.
