Sometimes I wish I wasn't so afraid of letting go, and also of letting stay.
I wish I'd simply follow the road paved, but still I choose otherwise, and stray.
I end up feeling ashamed and guilty, embarrassed, like I've committed a crime,
And I know I'm right to feel so, but it's not supposed to be all the time.
What I used to think was pure cruelty I now see was only love;
I somehow, though, still feel indifferent about some things that have been done.
I wish there was more to life than just hiding myself away.
In the closet?
In the darkness, in the shadows of the shallows, from the light surrounding me.
I wish I could just run away and leave this life I lead behind.
I wishー no, I prayー
What, praying to God to free the gay?
No, I'm trying to pray it away. But we all know what they say, that it don't work that way...
I wish it did, even for but a day, but I know it never will, which is why I still keep it at bay.
Oh yes, it's a constant fight inside me; A war waging within me,
And I want to forget it!
I confess, I'm always afraid, always ashamed of what's inside me
I confess, I'm always afraid, always ashamed of what's inside my head...
I want to forget it, but I can't forget it.
So I do my best to keep it away; to lock it and bury it within me.
But somehow someone somewhere found the key I threw away, made their way into my heart and unearthed my dark secret.
And now it haunts me everyday, because from it I had run away, oh...
Now it falls all around me
Did I think I could run away?
Now it's coming to find me
This war that I deserve
Now it burns across this shattered earth
I lift my eyes to fire
Under a falling sky
Hopeless, there's nowhere to hide
The terror is real this time
Under a falling sky
I'm under, I'm under
A falling sky
There you are, so far away
Did you think I was fighting you?
I only wanted to carry you
So far away from here
The nightmare bleeds
The poison seeps
I hear you call
You're screaming, screaming
Under a falling sky
Hopeless, there's nowhere to hide
The terror is real this time
Under a falling sky
I'm under, I'm under
A falling sky
My fate it rains, it rains like cinders
The cadent drums, the war it comes
Growing thunder, terror, wonder
Falling, falling
It's falling, falling
Under a falling sky
The terror is real this time
It's over now, it's over
NOW!
The terror is real!
I'm under, I'm under
A falling sky
Under a falling sky
I'm falling, I'm falling
The terror is real this time
I'm falling, I'm falling
Under a falling sky
I'm falling, I'm falling
I'm under!!
Oh, Liam... Where are you now? What have you done? Are you lost? Why did you go? Why do you hide? Will I find you again? Where have you gone to? Are you alone? Are you afraid? Are you searching for me? Will you wait? Will I see you, will I find you again? (*Shamelessly adds to the lyrics of Hymn For The Missing*)
But ah, forget it, I'm done with this!
I've spoken out so many times!
So leave me alone in this deep abyss,
And fuck this shit, I'm out of rhymes.
All I want is to be free,
If love's a sin, to do the crimes.
But I know it's all fantasy,
That might bring about my demise.
I've prayed for freedom so many times,
I've pleaded for guidance to be wise
Yet all that never got me to the prize,
So fuck this shit, I'm out of rhymes!
I've asked for wisdom, prayed for wealth,
And for my friends, prayed for good health;
But scorch those hopes, I'll be just fine,
And fuck this shit; I'm out of rhymes <3
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The Darkness Within: Vol. 2
PoetryA second installment, a continuation of its brutally and abruptly discontinued predecessor. It's a very personal poetry book, as most of those who have read some poetry from the original would know. Long story short, I write to vent, and this is wh...
