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You don't scare me; I'm just afraid of you
I feel I'm changing, though I don't want to
I'm so ashamed of the things I've done
I can't bring myself to talk to you now
I don't know what to say anymore
I'm keeping silent because I can't talk
Because if I talk, I fear I won't stop
I don't want to do things I'll regret.
I'm scared of you because I trust you
I've never trusted anyone outside my family
As much as I trust you, and it scares me.
Now I'm scared of going wrong
I fear we might not get along
Not that anything has changed between us,
It's just my depression putting a rift between us.
A mountain of possible problems I see
An invisible thing I fear irrationally
Every small thing feels magnified
I'm scared you'll get tired of me
But you won't say because you love me
Then it'll spill out eventually
And the end result would be ugly...
It just feels wrong to feel so good
I hate when depression makes me brood
It always leaves me in a sullen mood
And all simply because I feel good.
You don't scare me, but I'm scared of you
I know you wish there was some you could do
I'm not sure if you can help the way I feel
Because it's irrational: I'm scared of you.
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The Darkness Within: Vol. 2
PoetryA second installment, a continuation of its brutally and abruptly discontinued predecessor. It's a very personal poetry book, as most of those who have read some poetry from the original would know. Long story short, I write to vent, and this is wh...
