Silent Tears

Chapter 1: Attitude Much

It was that time of month for Albert. It sucked.He hated every minute of it, but there was nothing he could do about it. He had to just push threw it. Albert was always very moody at this point in the month. Nobody knew why though, they just thought it was Albert having a bad day.

"Ugh!!! Why can't I just be normal! Why did I get stuck with THIS body?!" Albert screamed in the bathroom. Nobody else was in the lodge so he could scream his head off if he chose to. I walked out of the bathroom. I headed toward my bed. There's a loose board under my bed, so that's where I put my stuff. That's the exact reason why I choose this bed. "Oh Albie!" Shouted Race while running up the stairs. I quickly hid the stuff in the loose board and jumped on the bed laying casually as Race ran into the room. 

Race then jumped on top of Albert. "Whatcha doin?" Race asked till on top of Albert. Albert's attitude started to kick in. "Well I'se was trying ta relax until you'se came in ere an jumped on me!" Albert practically yelled. Race got off of Albert with a sad look. Apparently a few of the boys heard the conversation. "Albert, be nice. He's just being Race." Buttons said. "Yeah, it no big deal. Nothin ta fuss ova." Elmer stated. "Yeah well maybe it is! Maybe he shouldn't jump on me and bug me all the time! He should just leave me alone for ONCE!" Albert screamed at the boys. Race had tears pooling his eyes. Albert had seen this and felt bad. It's not like he could help it. Albert jumped up from his bed, climbed out the window, and ran up the fire escape onto the roof.

I sat up on the roof silently crying. Nobody could here me. It was always silent tears. 

It was dark now, and I was still on the roof. Still crying. I then heard foot steps coming up the fire escape. I hid my face in my knees to hide my puffy red eyed, even though they wouldn't be able to see it anyway. "Albert?" Finch. "Oh Albert." Finch said worriedly while rushing to me. "Go away Finch." I stated not wanted to show him any sadness or emotions in general. "I'se not going anywhere." "An neitha are we'se." Race stated as himself, Buttons, Elmer, JoJo, and Henry climbed onto the roof. 

I still had my head tucked into my legs. The boys then sat beside me. "What's goin on Al? You'se know you'se can tell us anythin right? We'se are ere for you'se." Elmer said softly. "Nothin! Why you'se tryin ta pressure me?! I'se shouldn't have ta talk if I'se don't wanna! I yelled while waters stinging my eyes. Finch rubbed my back and said "Al, we'se not tryin ta pressure ya inta anythin, we'se just wanna know what's wrong so we'se can help ya. I have no clue what to do. Do I take the risk and tell them?

 I then stood up. Wiped away the tears still on my face. I then grabbed Race's wrist. I dragged him down the fire escape and threw the window. We are the only ones in the room. "Look away." Race did as I told him to do. I picked up the loose board and got my stuff. I then grabbed Race's wrist again, and dragged him into the bathroom. "Wait out ere." Race again did a he was told. I did my thing and walked out of the bathroom stall. Race looked at me confused. "What are we'se doin in ere Al?" I sat down on the ground, Race did the same. "Ya see Racer, I'se, I'se, I'se not normal. I'se wasn't born in da right body." Race was more confused than ever. I then unbuttoned my shirt to show Race the tightly wrapped bandages. I then showed Race my supplies. I can't tell what Race is thinking now. Race then suddenly jumped up from his seat and hugged me tightly. "I'se till love ya Albie. You'se perfect da way you'se is. But I dink dat you'se should tell da otha's. Dey are real worried bout ya Albie." Race stated. "I'se know. I'se will tell all of em except Finch. I'se can't tell Finch." "Why's not???" Race asked with a smirk on his face while nudging my arm playfully. I just rolled my eyes, not wanted to respond. This boy knows me way to well.

We walked back up to the roof. Race asked Finch if he could help him with something to get Finch off of the roof. "Race said dat I'se should tell ya guys." With out even saying anything else I unbuttoned my shirt again showing the tightly wrapped bandages. They all looked shocked. Now I'm worried. What if they don't except me? What if they hate me now? They all looked at each other. They stood up and started walking over to me. Considering the fact that they didn't say anything I was expecting a punch in the face. Instead the gave me a huge hug. 

Once the hug ended Buttons asked "Why did Race want Finch ta leave? Do you'se not want Finch ta know?" I looked down and eventually shook my head. "Why don't you'se want him ta know?" JoJo asked. "I'se might like him a lil bit." I reponded sheepishly. They all got so excited. Words were thrown around like "You'se should totally ask him out!" Or, "You'se two would be so cute tagetha!" "Okay, Okay, I'se get it!" 

Elmer then spoke up "Is dis why you'se had an attitude lately?" I knew he would ask that. I hate it when I have a big attitude. A tear slipped down my face. I looked down feeling ashamed and nodded my head slowly. "Aww Al." Elmer said while coming over to me. He lifted my head and made me look right at him. "It don't matta. You'se is perfect. But I'se am glad ta know dat it cause of dis an not dat you'se just annoyed at us." "Ditto!" Henry yelled. We all laughed. 

We climbed back threw the window while we saw Race pointing at the bed leg and Finch trying to see what he was talking about. "I'e tellin ya Finch, It's loose." "You'se are crazy Racetrack! Dere ain't nothin loose!" Race is the best friend I could've ever asked for. I then coughed. They looked at me, and Race shook his head understanding that he could stop trying to distract Finch. Everyone was heading into bed at this point. I climbed into bed and tried to fall asleep.

My thoughts then went somewhere else. My dark place. My past. Nobody knew about it, and I hope nobody ever will. A silent tear slid down my cheek, as I thought about my terrors.