To Ethan

He's such a prick

From Julie: so did he explain anything to you??

To Julie: he's such a prick

From Julie: wtf? why?
From Julie: i was so hoping it'd go well?

To Julie: same here but i asked for the truth and that's what i got

From Julie: ???

To Julie: i asked him if he was feeling better. he said he's managing and hoping for a fresh start here at college
To Julie: and apparently he and mel are over because he said it got unhealthy for both of them
To Julie: i asked him why that was and then he threw the bomb. we were right, he didn't try to commit suicide back then, it was an accident that mel caused. she was the one who was driving and she was DRUNK DRIVING but ethan didn't even know she'd been drinking anything
To Julie: he told her to get out of the car and sat himself on the driver's seat before mel contacted the ambulance and the police. he basically tried to cover it up so mel wouldn't get punished by the police and whatever.
To Julie: and then it seemed to him that mel only stayed in a relationship with him because she felt bad and that's what was toxic about it

From Julie: oh god wow that was not what i was expecting .. what did you say to that?

To Julie: i started crying, i was such a mess. for some reason i was really exhausted after that and i stood up saying that he truly made me believe he was leaving me and i told him how much it hurt and how scared i was and that i couldn't believe he was lying about that to me. i left then

From Julie: he just wanted to protect his girlfriend, and you. think about what you would've done

To Julie: me? how was he protecting me when he said we should stop contacting each other for a while?

To Julie: hold on jules, i think someone just slipped a note under my door

To Aubrey

I get that I hurt you and that was all I could think about the last nine months. But I just couldn't tell you what really happened because I knew you and I knew you'd scold her and me and you would've hated us and I don't think I could've been able to live with that situation, I guess.

I made you believe that you did something wrong, didn't I? The thing is I missed you all along because that night, you looked at me like I matter in this world.

I know what I did doesn't qualify me to talk to you again because I simply don't deserve you. But if you're willing to open this door right now and ask me really ANYTHING, I'll give you the answers.

If you can't forgive me, though, and want to move on, you can leave that door shut and I'll back off.

I'm sorry.

Ethan