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i walked over to him in just my thong and bra running my hands up his shirtless body wrapping them around his neck placing small kisses up to behind his ear where he started moaning

"Ash" he moaned

"Come on let's be bad" I mumbled into the side of his neck he just groaned giving me indication that he wanted to so I pulled him in the bathroom where he stripped his pants and shoes off

"Bubble it" I said and he did

He was standing their rubbing his hands on his pants

"What's the matter" I said

"Idk you make me so nervous when we're alone im like this im sorry" he said but I thought it was cute

"Don't be sorry it's ok" I said

he came up to me grabbing me by the waist picking me up while he was kissing me he had me against the door where he locked it so no one would disturb us I pulled back and saw bubbles coming out of the tub

"Austin you put to much"

"To much what"

"Bubbles" I giggled pointing he looked and laughed setting me back on the floor I pulled down his boxers as he watched me but I wasn't gonna do anything to him I was gonna tease the shit out of him before I gave in i stood in front of him stripping so he could watch and oh he was it felt like holes were gonna be burnt in my back I got in the tub and said

"Well aren't you gonna join" and he did sitting next to me pulling me closer next to him it was so warm and relaxing I loved being next to him like this we never done this we talked for a while before i straddled him which turned into a make out session then I started making a beard with bubbles

"Let me take a picture" I said grabbing my phone

"No" he said grabbing it back

"Please I won't show it to anyone promise" which I didn't I snapped the picture showing it to him then he said

"Smile" and I quickly looked making sure the bubbles were covering everything which they were because their was so many of them

When the water got cold we got our draining the bubbles I walked back in the room naked going for my clothes but he pushed me on the bed standing in between my legs he leaned down to my ear

"Let me fuck you right here" he moaned in my ear and I let him jeez I'm so glad those walls are sound proof

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Our Las Vegas trip was half way over and I was more in love with ashley than ever she just made me so god dam happy call me sappy and girly but she made this feeling in me spark and when I lost her to Becky before I hated every waking moment I wasn't with her and the way she hung on Rob it made me so jealous even though robs my best friend It still pissed the shit out of me I don't plan on loosing her again she is my best friend our relationship is so different from when we were just having sex it was way more intimate and the sex just got better and better she makes me so nervous and I can't figure out why it wasn't that long ago we both didn't want a relationship we just wanted to have sex with eachother and not be forced to be with each other to go out with other people but all of s sudden something clicked and this is where we are

"Austin dude your spacing" Rob said

"Yea just thinking"

"About Ashley"

"Yea"

"You really love her don't you"

"I do Rob I really do" i admitted

"Dam I need to find myself a girl how do you know she's the one" Rob asked

"It hits you out of nowhere Rob you wouldn't believee it"

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Later on that evening me and Rob went back to the hotel while alex and Zach filled us in on the party the girls were at that was being held behind the pool Las Vegas was just getting better and better I was in the suite with the boys we were all drinking as I changed into a different pair of clothes I pulled on a pair of dark kaki jeans that ash mentioned she liked on me a couple of times I pulled on a black t shirt and put on my cross and Angel necklace that dangled from my neck spiking my hair up a little as I examined myself in the mirror spraying myself with cologne

"Come on austin lets go already" Rob yelled

"Hey Unlike you two I have a girl to impress"

"Hey I have one and im not taking an hour" alex said

"Shut up"

As soon as we got down to the pool music flooded my ears their were lights flashing and the palm trees lit up enough to give you a glimpse at the selection their were plenty of girls for Zach and Rob to hook up with and they knew it they seemed to be i glory as they looked at all the ass walking by they both split up i. Different directions to go find some hot ass to hit but me and alex went to go look for The girls

When I was walking some girl grabbed my shoulder but I wasn't Intrested I was too worried about finding ashley I heard two girls yelling Sarah running up to alex tackling him in a hug and Zach came up behind Dylan wrapping his arm around her when did that happen

"Dylan have you seen ashley anywhere" I yelled over the music

"We were with her but then we got split up theirs just to many people here I thought she'd be with you" Sarah said

Ignoring that twist in my stomach I got really nervous and anxious their were so many people here I let them go back to what they were doing and I scanned the crowd for her their was a huge bar with drunk girls dancing on the guys I looked over to the fire pit where my friends just took a seat but she wasn't their either she couldn't be lost in Las Vegas alone at night if anything happened I would just die

As soon as Tat thought happened I saw ashley but she wasn't with Dylan or Rob she was sticking her tongue down some guys throat I almost threw up my eyes stinging it was like I couldn't breath

The memories came back to my head last night the day she told me she loved me the night on the tour bus everything it was all a lie the thought of her being my last girl all those memories at the amusement park and the fairs movies dinners or was all a waste know nothing mattered no more

She never loved me the way she would always go on dates and be all over Rob I put more into the relationship than her she didn't want to be with me she only did it because she felt sorry the day I was breaking down in her arms if she loved me she would be trying to find me not shove her tongue down some random guys throat

What did I feel like doing? I felt like going over their and punching him in the face killing him If I wanted to I wanted to embarks her in front of the party but it was to crowded what I felt was depression coming on I felt worthless to myself the feeling of not being enough to her the feeling I wasn't good enough for her that she had to cheat one me he was muscle good looking blonde hair dressed nice I was a stump compared to him as I squeezed my and hands together so hard I gr that feeling only my blade could take away

Pushing through all the people I tried not to cry I tried not to let that image come back to my head the disappointment I had because I knew what o was about to do I was about to have a fucking relapse I was going to regret