You know you love me || Ranboo x Reader *on break/discontinued*

~29.5~

-vent chapter-

i can't write anything right now but i'm going to write this because well maybe someone wants to read it, idk i feel bad not updating for a while

⚠️TW// anxiety and depression symptoms, depressive episode, anxiety attack, su¡c¡dal thoughts and ideations, intrusive thoughts, thoughts of hurting oneself, parental conflict⚠️

(it sounds like a lot but i am trying to fit in every possible thing just to be sure)

-please stay safe-

(this isn't going to be formatted correctly because i'm too tired to fix it)

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hurt/comfort

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this is going to be deleted later but for now have a chapter

(y/n and ranboo aren't dating in this because i can't write romance right now)

// this does not affect the plot line of the fic whatsoever //

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Y/n POV

I was returning from a trip to see my parents, and had just gotten off of the flight, looking around for Ranboo.

"Y/n!"

I turn and see a tall man, his hair briefly swinging in his eyes, and run towards the figure.

He catches me in a hug and we hold each other tightly.

"How was your trip?"

"It was good, kind of overwhelming though," I say into his shirt.

"Yeah, how are you feeling?" He asks.

"Tired"

"Alright, let's get to the car and you can sleep"

-Timeskip-Ranboo's house-

(god this is such shitty writing so sorry 💀)

"Is it alright if I do a quick stream? You can do whatever," he asks.

"Sure"

He starts the stream and I join in for the beginning but quickly start zoning out and getting overwhelmed.

"I'm gonna go to the balcony, alright?" I say while trying to mask my anxiety for the stream.

"Alright," he says, and I hear a hint of concern in his voice.

I open the door to the small balcony and just sit on the floor, looking at the view.

Closing the door, I wrap my arms around my knees

You should jump

No more anxiety that way

You would be so free

Nothing more to worry about

You're not going to do anything worth living anyway

Jump.

I close my eyes and lean my head back against the wall, struggling to maintain easy breaths.

In

Out

In

Out

In

...

The door opens, and I open my eyes to see Ranboo, then close them and lean my head back again.