Never Kiss Your Best Friend

Chapter 31

कर्मण्येवाधिकारस्ते मा फलेषु कदाचन।
मा कर्मफलहेतुर्भूर्मा ते सङ्गोऽस्त्वकर्मणि॥

Karmanyevadhikaraste ma falshu kadachan.
Ma karmafalheturbhurma te sangoऽsthvakarmani॥

English Translation: You have a right to perform your prescribed duties, but you are not entitled to the fruits of your actions. Never consider yourself to be the cause of the results of your activities, nor be attached to inaction.

Aisha's POV 

Fireworks exploded in my stomach as soon as his lips landed on mine. 

No. Not the fireworks, that would be too simple to put what I was feeling. an entire bomb exploded in my system, making y heart drum in my chest, my lungs contract in me as if there was no breath, and my entire body went numb. 

His lips pecked mine, I parted my lips and followed his rhythm. What was I supposed to do? It was my first ever kiss. That too with someone I was falling hard in-

Aaron swiped his tongue over my lower lip, an invitation to touch me through my mouth to my soul. Our lips moved in sync, as I opened my mouth and he slid his tongue inside, and every part of my body burned like a furnace. 

The blood pounded to my ears when he gripped my waist, pulling me close to him if there was any distance left. For once in my life, I wanted to sail free from my feeling when I danced with him. For once I wanted to test my limits, and what would happen if I let go of the control I insinuated upon my heart? When he leaned down, I gladly let go of the imaginary chains I put around my brain and dived deep into his touch. 

I gripped his wrist, resting on my jaw as I deepen my kiss with our tongues mashing, teeth clashing and lips touching in a fierce competition of expressing our feelings to each other. It was different. So different that I was ready to jump off the cliff with these feelings. 

Aaron's hand on my back travelled up my spine until the edge of my hand as he gripped my hair and pulled me more toward him. Toward that divine mouth exploring every part of mine. Our kiss was the doorway, an open invitation for him to enter and destroy me to the core. If I thought this kiss could not go more intimate, I was wrong. So fucking wrong. And I also knew this was wrong. But, I would rather fucking die like this than any death waiting for me in my homeland. 

There was music in the club with people around us, so faint and toxic under his touch. The thunder in my chest and the pain in my core accelerated when he dragged his teeth on my lower lip. Fucking swallow me whole. 

Panting hard, I lifted my eyes to meet his doe eyes looking straight into mine as if there was a passage he was entering. His ears were pink, a blush tainting his cheeks as he breathed hard. But, did not pull away much from me. 

While looking deep into each other, dread filled my stomach. I saw through him. All of him. The emotions he was radiating through the passage of his eyes. That care in his eyes, that achievement, and that... the hope of never letting me go. Tears brimmed in my eyes, as I pushed him away with a force on his bicep. 

My lower lip trembled when I turned around, finding my way from the crowd toward the exit. Toward anywhere- just away from him. Away from what his eyes reflected. nausea generated in my stomach, and pain worth the level of a knife piercing through my heart filled my chest. 

No. 

I couldn't do this to him.

I was not meant to be loved. No matter how far I had come with him by my side, there were amendments I made to myself before he came into my life. I did not deserve Aaron. Or better, he did not deserve someone like me.