My Guardian Angel {Tokyo Revengers~ Taiju Shiba}

Chapter 18

Hey there,

Its me again.

Sorry I haven't been writing much but graduation really had my hands tied up.

God..

I still can't believe its been a whole year already.

Time really does fly by when you're stressed out.

I mean I knew my last year of high school was going to hard but in truth, it wasn't hard at all...

...I'm just nervous.

Nervous that even after all this hard work, it will all be for nothing.

I keep having this feeling in the back of my head that something is going to happen.

Something that will crush my hopes and dreams.

Something that would probably make everyone disappointed in me...

So disappointed that I will never show my face ever again.

No.

I shouldn't think like that.

I just graduated high school.

I still have time before I am officially licensed.

I mean yeah, I am so nervous about life after high school but that's reality.

You keep studying or start working.

You start facing the real world and it all depends on you.

How you act on it and how you accomplish it.

But still.

Why do I feel so scared to face it all?

Am I just nervous that no one will like my cooking?

Or is it because I know I can't satisfy everyone?

But I know I can't live my life trying to please others.

Because if that's my goal then my job won't be my passion.....it'll be just a job...

And I don't want that.

I guess I just got to think positive and keep moving forward.

Just like all my friends.

Oh, I forgot to mention.

I am finally back home.

Well...

Not exactly home.

My aunt's home.

My parent's relationship isn't going very well so my mom is staying with her sister, my aunt, while my dad is back home.

I wanted to check up on him to see how he is doing....But I don't think I can face him alone...

Yes my dad loves me and I love him....But we almost never talk.

Whenever my dad tries to start a conversation, its like I'm talking to a stranger.

The last time we talked was when he got back from his trip a week before I left.

If he asks me a question, I answer politely to not be rude....

But we hardly talk.

Usually we just have adult conversations.