Uthando lwabaphansi.

chapter 43

[ November ]

It's already the 14th of November only just 4 days till I move to the Dlamini household no cap I am a bit scared at how things will be or how I will actually be able to juggle school and marriage

It's already the grade 10 final exams and boy am I nervous I really wish to ace these exams kakhulu and most importantly I believe in myself that I can actually pass these exams

Today I'm writing the English and isizulu paper both well I'm the only one doing that since on the 16th I need to go to the river and I'm only coming back on the 18th vele vele on the 18th I'm not writing any paper

The last day is the 24th of November well me and Nkosenye have been awfully close even amahle realised that things are a bit clearer and we are still only getting to know each other better we finally agreed to just give this thing a try

We didn't actually talk about it we have only been going with the flow although at school he treats me like a stranger as if he dosent even know me as if we actually aren't going to get married in just 4 damn days !

My friendship with my mother in law has been amazing my mom seems so happy that we are actually giving this whole thing a try I'm starting to get why the ancestors chose him for me kancane nje

I take my small shein bag I stack my small journal ,a pen ,rubber and ruler all the things I need for the exams well today I'm leaving with nkosenye he has to take me home since ma and dad are going to embumbulu

Amahle ,Lee and naledi are happy though they say he's some how embarrassed or scared to be seen with me in public meaning la eskoleni

( Back to reality )

I take my bag and head out my earpods in both my ears I really am going to enjoy these papers today
Mom has her back to me sitting around the table ,dad is at umlazi where the lobola will take place sorting out some things

I kiss her on the cheek from behind and she smiles

Mom:"my favourite daughter "

Me:"I'm pretty sure the other one is out there enjoying her life "

Yep I have a sister an elder sister well she mainly visits njeeeee but we understand she's studying medicine her third year and she was there ngomhlonyane and that was the last time we actually saw her she's in uj

We used to be tight but now she's always occupied with school all the time but when she visits it's only small catch ups and she has errands la in Durban but either way I'm proud of her

Mom:"yeah Zama really is busy trying to fix her life "

Me:"is she going to be there Friday "

Mom:"nope but she will be ngomembeso wakho next year "

Me:'i wonder how we are going to pull it off without people knowing I'm married ngimncane "

Mom:'nosipho said she will make a plan and honestly I trust her "

Me:"mom I'm leaving soon and this house is going to be empty without me "

Mom:"girl please kahle bo wena phela mina I will see you at church and we will have some Sunday lunches"

Me:'why do I have to move to the dlamini's after the lobola and not the wedding "

Mom:'you mainly like the member of the family just that awakathelwa ngenyongo but bayakuthenga "

Me:"charge them a lot bandla ngyakucela "

Mom:"ngawe stop hlala eblair etholl"

Me:"haaaa Mma"