Uthando lwabaphansi.

chapter 52

Nkosenye's POV

The sounds of birds chirping is the first thing I hear always I look around and indeed I'm at the ancestral place it's been weeks since I have actually been here

I start walking I'm incontrollable to my legs I'm walking but I don't know where I'm headed my heart is basically my own navigator I stop when I see a hut at the further side of the forest there's fire there I hear some agony screams but u just remain in place

I really want to run and go help but I'm stuck in place a figure is approaching where I am I look closely and it's a person wearing all white the more he comes closer the more my heart starts beating fast and the more in also spooked

How the hell is he here because we buried him just a week ago ?

Lelo:"bafo "

I look at him with my mouth agape

Me:"Ka...kanjani"

He looks so serious his hands on his side's and he's standing infront of me and staring directly at me

He starts shaking his head as if disagreeing with something in actually doing I look at him so confused and most of all kinda spooked I mean what is he doing here

I shout his name but it jus falls on deaf ears what is happening kanti ?

I chirp up from my bed shouting mpumelelo's name nah man this is not good this is actually the 2ndtime I've had a dream like this in one basically I'm kinda feeling guilty now

I glance at my digital on the wall it's past 02 am ,I don't think I'm still going to go back to sleep manje I wear my slippers and head downstairs wearing my boxers and baggy t-shirt

The lights are already switched on downstairs okay I wonder who's downstairs
Nomzamo has her back turned to me and she's eating ice cream yohhhh this has a very sweet tooth

Ever since the funeral I don't know I guess I've been avoiding us actually talking I don't know where I actually stand with her but one thing I do know is that I like her but I can't compete with mpumelelo and especially since he's no more

I have talked to her this work just not about this but it's now or never ke
Instead of turning I walk to stand next to her on the counter

I take a teaspoon from one of the drawers and stand next to her I scoop some ice cream and eat

Nomzamo:"you up so early ?"

Me:"I had a confusing dream "

Nomzamo:"you should talk to Khumalo about that "

Me:"o okay I'm going to try though I don't even know what is actually happening in this dream "

Nomzamo:"yeah neh nam I'm ve been having the same "

Me:"why are you up ?"

Nomzamo:"I was just thinking about us "

Me:"what about us?"

I scoop again

Nomzamo:"just me and you ,banzi will you tell me the truth do you still want to be with me after what happened?"

Me:"it's not like you were the one that killed him you weren't , wena do you think you can still be able to be with me and be happy after him "

Nomzamo:"..........

I just take the silence as a no wow !!! So all this just for nothing my marriage is broken before it's ever official

Nomzamo:"I like you banzi a lot and I haven't been open to you as I should since you are my husband but also in the midst of it all I thought I was doing what's right for you I don't want you to feel quilty "