The day you and Namjoon broke up was the day his life changed in many ways.
It was hard for him, but he has to be strong, for his members, and also for the fans.
He made a mistake. A big mistake that affected your relationship. He had never felt this kind of feeling before.
It was so... unbearable.
Not being able to be with you, he blamed himself. He blamed himself for hurting you.
He wished he could go and ask for your forgiveness, but he was too ashamed of himself to do it.
He wasn't himself anymore when it comes to concerts, practices and etc. He would always think about you.
The other members knew about it, they would talk to Namjoon but careful not to push his buttons.
He lost the love of his life. He failed you, and he wished he could turn back time.
Namjoon's POV
I fucking hate myself! I have never felt so ashamed in my entire life. I screwed it up.
(Y/N). I'm so sorry, I've hurt you.
I can't take this pain anymore. My conscience is bothering me. Why did I fucking cheat on her?
I lost my (Y/N), what else am I going to live for. The members probably hate me now. I fucking screwed up.
I pulled on my hair and sobbed. I ruined everything. Maybe they'll be better off without me.
I ran up towards the top of BigHit's building and to the edge of it. Maybe I'll just kill myself. I'm such a failure.
I heard footsteps behind me, and I saw my members. Their eyes widened. I smiled, a sad smile.
"I'm so sorry. I wasn't the best leader. I'm sorry for being such a failure. Please forgive me, tell (Y/N) that I love her with all my heart. But I guess it's too late." I shrugged and looked down.
"Until we meet again." I mumbled.
Before they could protest, I jumped off the building.
