The Devil Who Wears My Eyes

15 : The Creeping Madness

It is midnight. Kanina ay nakausap ko si Daddy at nakumpirma kong totoo nga ang mga sinabi ni Tito Jeremy sa akin kanina nang puntahan niya ako sa kwarto ko. Mananatili siya nang isang buwan dito habang inaasikaso ni Daddy ang kasal niya. It gave me more reasons for me to hate Mommy Kayla. No one knows I am hurting the way I am. Right now, I am already trembling. I know it is midnight and Tito Jeremy's warning is making me lose my mind. I already locked the door. I told Nanay Meera to rest now but I am slowly getting mad.

Hindi ako makatulog. I think I will not be able to because of that warning. Tito Jeremy want me to play with him again and I do not want that. Hindi ko na masisikmura pa ang makipaglaro sa kaniya. Every damn noise is making me anxious. Every damn minute that the clock is ticking, I am slowly being insane.

I do not want it anymore.

The nasty things they did to me, I do not want to be reminded of it anymore. And again, I do not want his hands all over me, touching me without me knowing it is not the way a family should hold me. I am afraid. More than scared than I ever was now that I know he can do vile things.

May kumatok sa pintuan. Tatlong beses at mahina lamang. Kaagad akong napapitlag at halos tumalon ang puso sa sobrang kaba. Ito na ang pinakakakatakutan ko sa ngayon. This night, this scene, this time...he is here. Tito Jeremy is here. He will play with me again.

Sandali kong pinakiramdaman ang paligid. The door...it is unlocking. I don't know how he got the keys, but I know I am afraid for what he is about to do to me. If I scream, I am even more afraid if I do. Nanatili na lang ako sa pwesto ko na halos manginig na sa takot habang hinihintay kung ano ang mangyayari sa akin. Tahimik ang paligid. Natapos ang pagbubukas ng pintuan ngunit wala akong narinig na mga yabag ng paa. Wala rin akong nakitang bulto ng kahit sino ngunit agad na may marahas na humawak sa aking leeg.

"Ah, Leopold."

I did not know where the little moan automatically came from, but that was my initial reaction from feeling his harsh grab on my neck. Ramdam na ramdam ko na agad sa init ng palad niya. Si Leopold iyon and not my Tito Jeremy. But this means I am asleep now that I am feeling him, right? But when did I go to sleep?

The grab gone tighter. Mayamaya pa ay naramdaman ko na ang labi niya sa labi ko. Hinahalikan ako na para bang uhaw na uhaw siya roon. He is even biting my lower lip as he touches my waist.

"I've missed this madness, Ariella." his voice...it is raspy but so fucking good to my ears. I cannot explain it. "What is making you so mad? Why does everytime you are stressed and mad and all of the things...it is lust that makes you calm down? Huh, Ariella?"

"I... don’t understand you."

Hindi na niya ako muli pang pinagsalita. He kissed me like the first time. Hot, passionate, and harsh. It is all those things. Kinakabahan pa rin ako ngunit wala na akong magagawa. Even just his touch, it made me moan.

"You called for me. Stress reliever mo ba ako and all the things I do to you? Your lust...akala ko ay sobra na iyon noong huli kitang bisitahin. But this right now, it is even more. Prettier."

He is harshly undressing me. Ilang segundo lang ang nakalipas ay ramdam na ramdam ko na ang kahubdan ko at ang marahas niyang paghiga sa akin sa kama. He harshly opened my legs and eventually I moaned because he is already thrusting inside of me. It is a mix of pain and pleasure, but I did not know he can make me this wet for just seconds of kissing me.

"Leopold, ah, fuck. Why did you..."

"Yes, Mommy?"

Napamura ako at halos mapasigaw na. He is turning me on in ways I could not explain. But why is he here again? I am afraid the last time I checked, not horny.

"Why...ah fuck, hmm, are you calling me Mommy?"

"Why? It is just a word. Nothing else."

"It is not just a word for me!"

I heard him chuckle. His thrusts gone harder, and I moaned more. He doesn't even need anything to tie both my hands up because I keep on grabbing his hair, his strength is enough to forbid me to pull his hair and do things to him. I can't even ask him again why I cannot see him this time.

"Mommy,"

"Tangina, Leopold. Stop calling me Mommy...no, don't stop. I don't know what to feel."

"Mommy, you're trembling." He chuckled again and started to thrust in me faster.

Napapaliyad ako sa sarap. Hindi ko inakalang gagawin niya iyon bigla-bigla ngunit hindi ko rin inaasahang magigising ako at naghihingal. Bitin na bitin sa nangyayari at hinahanap si Leopold sa ibabaw ko. Hubad na hubad din ako nang kapain ko ang sarili ko. Ang pinagkaiba lamang ay wala na ako sa panaginip ko. I am sure that I am awake now and I am sure that someone is really trying to open my door by the way it is sounding.

Does that explain why Leopold stopped? I am no longer asleep.

"You will play with me again..."

 

Naaalala ko na naman ang mga sinabi ni Tito Jeremy. The fear I am talking about a while ago, it is sinking in again. It might really be Tito Jeremy trying to unlock my door now. It might really be him trying to play with me again like what he said.

Leopold shouldn't have left. I shouldn't have wake up so I wouldn't know Tito Jeremy is creeping in.

I want to die now.

"Ariella..." I heard his voice from the outside. Doon na tumulo ang luha ko. It is really happening. "Are you ready to play with me?"