Hurt, Pain, Regrets

Numb

I'm so numb.
I can't see it.
I can't feel it.
All I see are these dark colors.
Shades of black coat over
The reds and yellows.
I can't believe it.
I lost my mind in someone
That saw me as a pawn.
Serenity written in his eyes,
But he spits venom from his lips.
I felt such tranquility
When he whispered those delicate words.
And his tenderness took me to sleep.
Now I wish to rip these memories
When calamity wasn't at my door.
I want to forget his existence
And see the colors,
Not the color of his cold eyes.
Now the ice of his words
Crawl up my veins
And freezes the beating of my heart.
I am numb because I saw
That burning fire behind his eyes,
Because he pushed me against
The wall and trapped me.
I am numb because
He shouted his poison
At my face with pleasure.
"You were just a game."
Everything in my head
Seemed to die that day,
But his harmful words
Echoes everyday.
For all I know
My heart is a pile
Of forgotten dust.
But whatever happened,
I didn't feel it.
I'm just too numb.