Hurt, Pain, Regrets

Sorry

Even if I told you
The truth
My words would sound unreal.

You wouldn't believe
The words that reach your ears
Because I ruined our years.

You would take my words as lies
Even as you're staring into my eyes
For my lips have slipped the worse.

You don't believe how regretful I am;
How my body longs for your touch once more;
How my eyes desire to seek your smile.

You once had lust for me.
For me and not the lies I spoke,
But you wished to change my speech.

I've told you the truth,
But only after all those lies
And then your wish came true.

I realize now that my false words
Affects me as it affects you,
And kills me as to you.

Because I'm no longer between your arms,
And I'm not the reason for your smile.