I'm blind,
I'm dumb,
I believe in masks,
even if I have one myself.
I believe in those
cracks, people call smiles.
I'm so oblivious
to the people around me.
I don't try to look deeper
into their hearts and souls.
to me,
a smile equals a perfect life.
I was so wrong.
I feel so stupid for thinking that.
I need to look deeper and longer.
I need to stop being so stupid,
so oblivious.
I have a mask of my own
and yet I believe in others'.
I always feel so trapped
between these four thick walls.
each second that passes by,
they inch closer to me,
and I find it harder to breathe.
I choke on my own tears,
and get lost in my thoughts.
my pillow's soaked;
my blankets tossed;
a mess of my floor;
bruises on my hands and knees;
music drowning my cries;
dark bags under my eyes.
but the next morning,
a smile stretches my lips.
I'm too clueless to know that
everyone else does the same.
they also taste the
ocean water on their lips.
the lack of sleep they carry
under their eyes.
the emptiness behind
their words.
the prayers they say
under their breath.
I'm too
blind,
stupid,
oblivious,
self-centered,
to see that we are all
the fucking same.
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Hurt, Pain, Regrets
Poetrywhy do we endure such pain, in such little time? {my rant of poems}