blue valentine

29122022

seems everyone and everything
is a screen away from me;
all of my friends,
the best of the best–
doing great without me:
they pictured together
in their wholesome asses whatsoever
while i'm in the corner
or probably in my bedroom–
being miserable as ever.

ha ha
poor little me.
seems it sucks being twenty
and things turned worse for being me–
seems the motivational quotes never works
for someone who never took positivity as his own.

i wish somebody would ask me if i'm all alright
without me bringing it first for them to check me out,
i'm so tired of friendships only exclusive in sunshine
and they're completely gone when you're in your dark times.

maybe,
that's the way it is.
and this feeling of sadness
seems super valid.

i just want to feel important,
isn't it too much?

or maybe in the first place,
i'm not already enough
and asking for something above me
is not acceptable and just?