Starving questions

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Tw ⚠️ : talk of sh
Atsushis pov :
He looks in the bathroom mirror just knowing Ranpo can't keep a secret .
Looking at his hand realising how noticeable it is .
He sighs and walks back to the office not seeing Ranpo anywhere .
He sits back down and continued his work .
Ranpo walked into the office a few minutes later looking at Atsushi from the side of his eye .
Yosano Taps him on the shoulders again .
"You need to have this you look quite pale Atsushi do you feel ok ?"
"Oh I'm fine don't worry "
Feeling Ranpo stare at him from across the room .
He takes a bite of the apple Yosano gave him and she walks off .
Atsushi takes a tissue out his pocket and spits it out place it in he bin really getting ranpos attention .
It was now late him and Dazai walk back together .
Getting in Atsushi just feels uneasy and tense .
"You good Atsushi ?"
"Yeah I'm fine just tired "
He goes to his room to get changes .
He slips off his shirt and places on a plain blue one , takes off his trousers but just sits on his bed looking at the bandages .
He stands up covering himself when Dazai walks in .
"Atsushi - sorry are you changing. What are those Banda for ?"
"Nothing . You can go now "
But Dazai walks closer .
"Atsushi what did you do ?"
"Nothing Dazai let it go "
He goes to a draw and gets out some pj bottoms .
He puts them on and turns back to Dazai .
"Did you do it ?"
He looks away and nodds not daring to look Dazai in the eye .
"But you said you didn't do that anymore ?"
"Yeah well i lied ok . I lie about a lot of things "
"Like what ? What have you been lying about ?"
"It doesn't matter . Im tired can we talk about this another time ?"
"I don't know can we ? How am I supposed to let you be alone when you just told me you lie about things . How am I suppose to know if you have things hidden away ?"
"I don't "
"Ok . I'm leaving the door open "
Dazai leaves .
Atsushi sits there listening to the sound of the TV being out on a lower volume .
He lays down and gets in bed , he does have things hidden , in his dresser .
He also does feel bad for Dazai and the others who are being put their having to deal with him .
He just doesn't know how to stop and if he could he would.
That feeling of uneasyness comes back but it was telling him to leave his room .
He walks out to the living room where Dazai is sitting .
He does say anything he just lays down next to him and falls asleep .